Help SH wounds

[pineapplebananashake]

Okay hi, im new here so im sorry if this is in the wrong discussion yk. But anyway, im battling bpd and I was sober from self harming for 5 years. Yet shit happens and i did it again but i cant go deep. I mean, no matter how hard i do it, its never kinda wide n deep you know. And it triggers me. Please dont say anything like "dont do it its hurting you." I know, but at least im still not dead. It kinda helps when im really suicidal. So my question is how to make my cuts more wider.

 

[Smart No More]

It sounds like you're in a really bad place. That can't be nice. In fact we all know it isn't and empathise with that. Unfortunately nobody is going to be able to offer you advice on making your wounds wider/deeper.