Venting Sh - such a rush.

[Lara Francis]

I used to question why people would even consider Self harm as I did not understand why you would want to hurt yourself on purpose and certainly didn't think I would become a self harmer but how wrong can you be ! it' is now sometimes the only coping mechanism that works

It really does make me laugh when it is suggested to use a distraction technique as nothing else other than drinking lots hits the spot,so you either become an alcoholic and stuff up your liver or continue to self harm.

I now have anxiety relating to frustrations over the court case and all the crap in this shit hole of life

Vent over
Thanks x

 

[Eden2k]

I used to question why people would even consider Self harm as I did not understand why you would want to hurt yourself on purpose and certainly didn't think I would become a self harmer but how wrong can you be ! it' is now sometimes the only coping mechanism that works

It really does make me laugh when it is suggested to use a distraction technique as nothing else other than drinking lots hits the spot,so you either become an alcoholic and stuff up your liver or continue to self harm.

I now have anxiety relating to frustrations over the court case and all the crap in this shit hole of life

Vent over
Thanks x

I could never understand why people would deliberately harm themselves, until I began doing it myself, out of the blue, ten years ago. I started SH in response to the voices, telling me to do it. If I did they would quiet down for a few hours. Enough time to let me sleep. But then they would ask me to go further, and order me to jump of bridges, throw boiling water over myself etc. For me, I never got a rush, and always felt ashamed, before, during and after SH, because I would always have to attend a&e for stitches, and hated how I felt having to explain myself to hospital staff.
I have been thinking about harming myself in the last year, even purchased new scalpels, but have to resist because I do real damage. The thought of having to go to hospital to receive treatment and the shame it brings, is why I do my best to resist the urge.

 

[15dec]

I did the exact same thing. Couldn't understand why people hurt themselves then did it myself, then started to switch between the two different mindsets. I don't self-harm anymore but I understand the reasoning behind it all too well. Sending you hugs

 

[Lara Francis]

I did the exact same thing. Couldn't understand why people hurt themselves then did it myself, then started to switch between the two different mindsets. I don't self-harm anymore but I understand the reasoning behind it all too well. Sending you hugs

How did you stop may I ask x

 

[15dec]

How did you stop may I ask x

Honestly not really sure, I think it was the combination of fear of being seen with more scars and losing access to what I used to self-harm

 

[Fucking loving it]

I've been self harming since I was young. I had about 3 months of not doing it. Yesterday I started up again.
I do it for different reasons. Sometimes it's to relieve anxiety and stress. Sometimes it's just because I like the pain. Sometimes the on going pain distracts from my grief. Sometimes it's because I deserve it.

 

[Lara Francis]

I've been self harming since I was young. I had about 3 months of not doing it. Yesterday I started up again.
I do it for different reasons. Sometimes it's to relieve anxiety and stress. Sometimes it's just because I like the pain. Sometimes the on going pain distracts from my grief. Sometimes it's because I deserve it.

I had also stopped for a while and whilst I understand your reasons too I'm sure you do not deserve it.!
Hugs x

 

[Miss clefable]

I recently stabbed my self in the upper abdomen it might go septic I really don't care how I die

 

[Lara Francis]

Miss hugs xx

 

[Lara Francis]

I still cut and was worried that i had hit a ligament or nerve in my wrist the other day.
I guess that would lead to loss of function and mobility.I self harm to turn emotional pain into physical pain as a short term distraction -i hadnt planned on it being this painful for so long !.