SH even with a date?

[numar]

I've been cutting for half my life at this point and have finally decided to ctb but even with my date chosen I still feel the need to SH almost daily now. has anyone else had to deal with this as they get closer to their date?

 

[nicotine_goblin]

Yeah, when I was approaching my attempts I would sh quite often to cope with the time I had left as well as emotional pain. A couple of the attempts were cutting, I would cut a lot to test out the blades, aspirin pills (how well they thin out the blood), and myself - how far can I go

 

[Valky]

Late to the party but I get that. :)
While many seem to feel relieve of knowing that the 'end is near' it doesn't automatically stop the pain and suffering. Seems very valid to continue cutting especially since it is also an addiction and an outlet.