So sorry for the shit that you & others have endured. I come back to this thought process a lot, it's horrific that we have no say in the first place and then are caused what can be essentially irreparable damage but the perpetrators so rarely have any sort of consequence. I'm almost numb to my own trauma at this point but I get so heated when I hear someone else that's had to deal with SA.
Ugh. Ugh ugh ugh. Really wish I had something more constructive or at least semi comforting to say past "it sucks, I'm sorry".