Sex addict

[Challu]

Tired on relapsing on porn and sex.
I'd rather be judged by God than continue living here, and struggling, failing over and over.

It's serious enough that I am sure I need addiction counseling.. but how long into that therapy until it would get ahold of me again?

I feel like I disappoint God and i feel x2 worse about disappointing myself every time I fail.

My whole reason to CTB is to stop sinning. I just want to express a true heart of love for goodness without being tempted.

It's impossible, this is so impossible to do here.

 

[LittleJem]

all addiction is an illness. Please don't blame yourself for being ill.

 

[H.O.Xan]

i'm one too. don't feel bad abt it. i don't indulge in porn however. but i spend a lot of time fantasising

 

[Kerock]

I'm on the same boat, but it's porn addiction. And it's not really a sin in the eyes of god since I'm an atheist, it just goes against the morals. The hypocrisy, shame, and the fact I look and feel disgusting after relapse just makes me want to Ctb. I wonder if I have this addiction in response to trauma or because I naturally have this fucked up fetish. Either way I feel like I've dug too deep a hole to get out of.

 

[Worndown]

If you have too much idle time, porn happens. Other activities are needed.

 

[Escapee]

I don't know how much your addiction affect you. I have gone through similar experience. I know how painful the remorse is. But I still can't understand how only this thing can lead one to ctb. I maybe wrong. Please if you pm me we can discuss more. God May speak to you through me. Please don't hesitate to pm me. God bless you

 

[AerialBoundaries]

You describe me to a tee. A horrible affliction.

 

[unnormal9]

If you have too much idle time, porn happens. Other activities are needed.

Bullshit. Porn is the not the first thing, or even a thing that happens with too much idle time.
There are some many others. And those 'other' activities will become addictive just as so; especially in desperate attempts to drop one addiction.