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LittleJem
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- Jul 3, 2019
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Hello all
so a few weeks ago I risked a megadose (450ug) of LSD. While I knew it was a big risk, I was at my wit's end. I did then, amazingly, have 3 or 4 weeks off the suicidal thoughts and misery. Which started coming back maybe yesterday or the day before (I blame hormones). I know LSD is risky, but then it did help last time - and I am feeling awful again.
I could also take some Ketamine and MDMA - but this hasn't had any lasting effect on me when done at home.
I could take synthetic psilocybin - I find it a bit scary.
I have a prescription for quietiapine, but am really scared of the side effects of that.
Maybe I am being stupid not taking the quietiapine - as I spoke to someone today, they said if you want to die anyway, maybe you should just risk the side effects.
Would appreciate any thoughts.
oh, one more option. I need one extra ingredient, then can home-brew Ayahuasca. I have taken it before, it's scary. But it did 50% help my mental health.
I am scared any of the above could cause psychosis.
so a few weeks ago I risked a megadose (450ug) of LSD. While I knew it was a big risk, I was at my wit's end. I did then, amazingly, have 3 or 4 weeks off the suicidal thoughts and misery. Which started coming back maybe yesterday or the day before (I blame hormones). I know LSD is risky, but then it did help last time - and I am feeling awful again.
I could also take some Ketamine and MDMA - but this hasn't had any lasting effect on me when done at home.
I could take synthetic psilocybin - I find it a bit scary.
I have a prescription for quietiapine, but am really scared of the side effects of that.
Maybe I am being stupid not taking the quietiapine - as I spoke to someone today, they said if you want to die anyway, maybe you should just risk the side effects.
Would appreciate any thoughts.
oh, one more option. I need one extra ingredient, then can home-brew Ayahuasca. I have taken it before, it's scary. But it did 50% help my mental health.
I am scared any of the above could cause psychosis.
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