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Circles
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- Sep 3, 2018
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So I'm bi and I've recently tried to go on some dating sites and a hookup app and tried my luck with men again but I've noticed a trend where sometimes when messaging I'd admit to them that I'm still in the closet and they'll stop talking to me. And my question is why? And while I can understand why they don't want to waste their time with someone like me. I just don't get why they think everyone can come out to their families. Not everyone has a good family that accepts them and even the people who have families who are homophobic and unaccepting and don't give a shit about what their family thinks of them probably are able to be independent and live by themselves which I'm not able to cause I'm disabled. I'm sorry if I sound like I'm assuming this is the case for everyone.
And what I don't get is that I thought this would be understandable by the lgbqt community of all cause I thought a lot of people are still in the closet. Coming out just seems impossible for me because mainly my mom is who I'm worried about more cause she's religious and has said countless times how sick gays let alone bisexuals are and such. So I don't know what the fuck to do. I know it's unattainable or unrealistic but I just wish I could find someone who could understand that I can't come out. But now this makes me more alone and I feel trapped. This is one of my reasons why I want to die anyway not like it matters if I die but I naively still wish to try if only someone could accept this situation I'm in. I mean am I wasting my time if I don't face up and come out then? I'm probably wasting my time posting this and I'm sorry if this bothers anybody.
And what I don't get is that I thought this would be understandable by the lgbqt community of all cause I thought a lot of people are still in the closet. Coming out just seems impossible for me because mainly my mom is who I'm worried about more cause she's religious and has said countless times how sick gays let alone bisexuals are and such. So I don't know what the fuck to do. I know it's unattainable or unrealistic but I just wish I could find someone who could understand that I can't come out. But now this makes me more alone and I feel trapped. This is one of my reasons why I want to die anyway not like it matters if I die but I naively still wish to try if only someone could accept this situation I'm in. I mean am I wasting my time if I don't face up and come out then? I'm probably wasting my time posting this and I'm sorry if this bothers anybody.