Self-sabotaged again

[HappySisyphus]

I just cut myself a bit ago, I was like sad I'm normally am but that's not why I did it, I got an app to track how long you don't self harm like 3 days ago and I guess I just wanted to fail, so I just did it, and then deleted the app, there isn't really a point of having it, I know I will do it again, so why bother.
I don't even know why I cut myself anymore, most of the time it barely helps, I like making some stupid papercrafts from time to time and that calms me more than cutting myself, yet I continue to do it, I guess I just really like sabotaging myself, at least this time I didn't do it on my arms so in some time I will be able to wear short slevees shirts.

 

[strawberry_lemons]

sh is like any other addiction, eventually you hate it but you cannot bring yourself to stop. i know it seems like your at fault but your not <3