Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,160
Do you self sabotage as a form of self-destruction/slow moving train wreck/CTB?
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,865
No. I do not need to self sabotage. Living is already painful enough. For me, things will eventually get worse and that will mean I will get desperate enough to eventually go through with ctb.
Bahbah Blacksheep
Member
- Dec 23, 2019
- 49
I do quite a lot of self sabotaging, not sure how or when it started. But I've been fucking things up for myself my entire life it feels. Only in the past ten years or so it's been kinda subconsciously guided by my desire to die I guess. And it's fucking awful, cause I keep making things worse, yet I'm still here.
Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,160
Bahbah Blacksheep
Member
- Dec 23, 2019
- 49
It makes me think about it a lot, and browse SS constantly. But for the most part it just makes me hate myself, because I keep getting stuck in awful situations I could have avoided.
corpse_prince
Member
- Jul 5, 2020
- 15
Yes. It's like I'm closing off doors for myself until I can't do anything but ctb.
Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,160
Yes. I constantly self-sabotage myself. Pushing people away, dropping out of grad school, quitting my job. It's like I want to prove to myself that I'm a loser so I have a good enough reason to kill myself.
My favourite thing to do. I have a theory that I do it so that it eventually pushes me to kill myself
