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MyOwnWorstEnemy
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- Apr 23, 2021
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So drawing blood on my arm again to calm myself down, needs to be felt physically not just mentally, I feel ready but peaceful ways are denied me.
I'm losing everything, because I'm not able to be 'normal' . I dare to have independence of thought, I articulate what I mean by exactly what I say but peeps only ever hear what they think I say. I don't care about infection, sepsis will kill me, good, bring it.Please disinfect it when you are calmer with like peroxide. An infection will hurt worse than any self harm scar you can give yourself. I feel the need to self harm a lot, its almost a constant urge if there weren't things to distract myself with but for your own sake find less potentially harmful ways of finding a way to feel that pain physically. Cutting can lead to worse cuts that you may need to go to the hospital for and if they recognize a self harm wound you may get sectioned. I've resorted to sometimes giving myself a Charlie horse in the leg instead of punching my face or cutting myself because of the pain and numbness. I hope you feel better.
Thank youLife can be cruel and terrible, I know that. Nobody deserves this suffering. I have never really got into physical self harm methods, it does appeal to me in a way. but I understand the coping mechanism of it. I wish you the best.