Self harm

[coyguy]

How many of you have self harmed in any way? I've used knives, needles, cigarettes and small logs.

 

[Klee]

I have cut since I was about 12. I managed to stop for the entirety of last year, but this year has gone a bit wrong so far.

 

[psyche]

me too
2 weeks free of sh. Sounds like nothing but baby steps.

 

[coyguy]

I have cut since I was about 12. I managed to stop for the entirety of last year, but this year has gone a bit wrong so far.

Sorry to hear about that. Cutting may be a temporary relief (at least for me), but leaves a permanent scar. So I hope you'll be able to stop again :)

 

[Mistake of Nature]

I've self-harmed on and off for 15+ years. I mostly cut, but have burned occasionally. I have used many different tools (razors, knives, scissors, tweezers, hot glue gun, hair styling iron, etc.) What's frustrating is that I've never managed to cut as deep as I'd like to.

 

[coyguy]

me too
2 weeks free of sh. Sounds like nothing but baby steps.

I'd consider that a big step! I'm unable to be free of it for more than a few days.
Hope you'll keep being free! :)

I've self-harmed on and off for 15+ years. I mostly cut, but have burned occasionally. I have used many different tools (razors, knives, scissors, tweezers, hot glue gun, hair styling iron, etc.) What's frustrating is that I've never managed to cut as deep as I'd like to.

I've had that frustration, as well. Hurts so damn much sometimes

 

[Luchs]

How many of you have self harmed in any way? I've used knives, needles, cigarettes and small logs.

I've personally not done that much self harm. But a few times, when things got really bad, I cut myself. But since someone asked what the cuts are from (I don't think they caught on) I stopped. Now I just hit myself or bang my head against a wall.

 

[sorry]

i cut, i'm 2 weeks clean, hoping for 3. mainly just use razors but i also pick the skin on my ears and head when i'm stressed.

 

[Kamiotesoro]

I've been on and off for about 1/2 a decade for now. Mostly bruising, hair picking, scratching, cutting and occasionally burning.

 

[coyguy]

I've personally not done that much self harm. But a few times, when things got really bad, I cut myself. But since someone asked what the cuts are from (I don't think they caught on) I stopped. Now I just hit myself or bang my head against a wall.

It's really good that you've stopped cutting! :) If someone asks about your cuts in the future, tell them that it's none of their business. People who point out others scars are very rude and invasive, in my opinion.

i cut, i'm 2 weeks clean, hoping for 3. mainly just use razors but i also pick the skin on my ears and head when i'm stressed.

I'll be rooting for you! Hope you'll be able to stay clean :)

I've been on and off for about 1/2 a decade for now. Mostly bruising, hair picking, scratching, cutting and occasionally burning.

Hopefully it doesn't become a constant habit for you!

 

[lostangel]

How many of you have self harmed in any way? I've used knives, needles, cigarettes and small logs.

I used to cut my thighs sometimes down to fat. The scars are still visible. I used razor blades, knives and now I punch myself in the stomach when I get extremely emotional. I usually bruise after. I don't cut anymore just punch.

 

[Rue89]

I cut when I was in high school. My mom found out and made me stop. I hadn't cut for 6 years then I started again in November last year. I stopped in December because I was afraid of my mom finding out. I just started again and I don't think I'm going to stop this time.

 

[BeeLoyal]

I have cut myself, first time in the psychiatry with the sharp edge of a tiny plastic cotton cheese container (Had to be creative since they prohibit sharp objects) and after that I did it like a couple of times again, not often. Last time was like 1.5 weeks ago where I cut myself with a sharp glass edge and that was the deepest I have cut so far, a lot of cuts that weren't deep and 2/3 that were so deep that the skin was cut through. Like actual penetration of the skin. Since a couple of days I have started smoking small cigars, yet it's been like 3 cigars. I don't even like smoking, but it is a sort of self harm knowing this is slowly killing myself.

HUG

 

[coyguy]

I used to cut my thighs sometimes down to fat. The scars are still visible. I used razor blades, knives and now I punch myself in the stomach when I get extremely emotional. I usually bruise after. I don't cut anymore just punch.

Good thing you're not cutting anymore! :) Not saying that you should be punching yourself, but bruises tend to disappear, scars do not.

 

[Koaster97]

Hi. I started self harming at 21. I was alone on my birthday and felt like complete shit so I thought I would try it. My friends that I'd met in mental institutions talked to me about how cutting helped them feel better and I stupidly decided to try it. I self harmed every day for about 4 months until I dropped out of university and started getting help/working out and was clean for about a year but because of the lock down + a bunch of shit happening in my life I've started again recently. I really regret it to this day because it's as powerful of a habit as biting my nails. Not a single day goes by without me thinking about cutting myself and I feel like a complete failure for restarting.

 

[Oh so tired]

I do, it's out of control at the moment, I mostly cut my thighs because it's easily hidden. Before the lockdown I was having to go to minor injuries for stitches about once a week, but now as I'm trying to avoid hospital I try to deal with the wounds myself. I also take overdoses and starve myself as ways of self-harming.
I'm sorry that you're struggling too.

 

[coyguy]

I cut when I was in high school. My mom found out and made me stop. I hadn't cut for 6 years then I started again in November last year. I stopped in December because I was afraid of my mom finding out. I just started again and I don't think I'm going to stop this time.

That's quite excessive! I don't know how much pain you're in that's causing you to cut yourself, but I hope you'll be able to stop again at some point :)

I have cut myself, first time in the psychiatry with the sharp edge of a tiny plastic cotton cheese container (Had to be creative since they prohibit sharp objects) and after that I did it like a couple of times again, not often. Last time was like 1.5 weeks ago where I cut myself with a sharp glass edge and that was the deepest I have cut so far, a lot of cuts that weren't deep and 2/3 that were so deep that the skin was cut through. Like actual penetration of the skin. Since a couple of days I have started smoking small cigars, yet it's been like 3 cigars. I don't even like smoking, but it is a sort of self harm knowing this is slowly killing myself.

HUG

Ouch, that sounds rough! I haven't cut myself that deep yet. Hope that'll be the last time you'll cut. And can't really fault you for smoking, since I do it myself, lol.
Many hugs!

Hi. I started self harming at 21. I was alone on my birthday and felt like complete shit so I thought I would try it. My friends that I'd met in mental institutions talked to me about how cutting helped them feel better and I stupidly decided to try it. I self harmed every day for about 4 months until I dropped out of university and started getting help/working out and was clean for about a year but because of the lock down + a bunch of shit happening in my life I've started again recently. I really regret it to this day because it's as powerful of a habit as biting my nails. Not a single day goes by without me thinking about cutting myself and I feel like a complete failure for restarting.

You're not a failure! Think of it as an obstacle you have to overcome. Mental health problems are not your fault! That may sound cliche at this point, but it's true. I've been struggling with it for a long time, as well. I know how hard it is.

I do, it's out of control at the moment, I mostly cut my thighs because it's easily hidden. Before the lockdown I was having to go to minor injuries for stitches about once a week, but now as I'm trying to avoid hospital I try to deal with the wounds myself. I also take overdoses and starve myself as ways of self-harming.
I'm sorry that you're struggling too.

Thank you for your sympathy!
That sounds really bad! You must be going through some very tough times. I really hope you'd be able to get clean soon!

 

[plough22]

I have Self harmed in last 2 years, blamed for sometime I didn't do. It has overtaken My life. The cuts give relief/ escape. I haven't cut in 2 days, on news meds s to hope that helps

I feel that I'll kill myself

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

I've done almost everything. Cutting (I've used scissors, razor blades, and pencil sharpener blades) , scratching, burning, biting, hitting (use my fists, the thick heel part of high heel wedges, and weights), choking (I've used rope, blankets, shoelaces, and sometimes even my phone charger cord) and once I used a toothbrush to make a friction burn on my wrist. :P

It's a lot and I'm not proud of it. I've been clean for one day now xp

 

[plough22]

I've done almost everything. Cutting (I've used scissors, razor blades, and pencil sharpener blades) , scratching, burning, biting, hitting (use my fists, the thick heel part of high heel wedges, and weights), choking (I've used rope, blankets, shoelaces, and sometimes even my phone charger cord) and once I used a toothbrush to make a friction burn on my wrist. :P

It's a lot and I'm not proud of it. I've been clean for one day now xp

I've done cutting with every knife known, scissors, rubbing off walls, hitting, using keys, anything that create a release.
I tied a rope around my neck and nearly lost consciousness
Whatever takes the pain, thoughts away

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

I've done cutting with every knife known, scissors, rubbing off walls, hitting, using keys, anything that create a release.
I tied a rope around my neck and nearly lost consciousness
Whatever takes the pain, thoughts away

Sometimes painting or playing piano makes my mind go numb and all the thoughts disappear. Ik what you mean wanting all the thoughts to go away <3

 

[Koaster97]

You're not a failure! Think of it as an obstacle you have to overcome. Mental health problems are not your fault! That may sound cliche at this point, but it's true. I've been struggling with it for a long time, as well. I know how hard it is.

I don't like to think this way it scares me. I think it's easier for me to rationalize my situation by blaming myself for things or I'm afraid I'll overflow with hatred. I know it is unfair but I feel it's less dangerous to hate the world, my family and stuff but I don't think I deserve to.

 

[SleeplessSoul]

I started self-harming when I was 7 (17 years ago). I started off head banging and moved onto cutting. The last few years I've mostly been self-harm free apart from occasional relapses but they only last a few months. I've also taken/been tempted to take overdoses as a way to do proper damage to myself

 

[Oh so tired]

I started self-harming when I was 7 (17 years ago). I started off head banging and moved onto cutting. The last few years I've mostly been self-harm free apart from occasional relapses but they only last a few months. I've also taken/been tempted to take overdoses as a way to do proper damage to myself

That is so sad that you were only 7.
I have a 7-year-old son and the thought of it breaks my heart. Well done for the self-harm free periods, I wish I could do the same.

 

[heavyglow]

I did cut as a teenager but stopped because the scars are stigmatizing and I wanted to ne able to live and work without having that stamp on. When the tension gets bad sometimes I scratch myself really hard.

 

[TJuk]

I started selfharming at 10/11 years old I'm 27 now. I've required surgery for my cuts, I've had a skin graft recently for burns that was quite gross before they operated, dead tissue smells awful put me off burning can say that for nothing

 

[BPD Barbie]

Serial self harmer here. I mainly use razor blades and have a dedicated patch on the top of my thigh for self harming. I've also burnt myself but don't find as much enjoyment doing that. I recently bought a scalpel but didn't find it that good to use. I've been self harming for 16 years.

 

[social_anxiety_sucks]

I did cut only once. Like 4 years ago. It was a small cut.
Now I usually bang my head against the wall and punch/slap my face really hard