Discussion Self-harm without self hate?

[leangenerator]

Does anyone else self-harm without self hate? I like the way the scars look and i like the process; am I just super ill? I've been wanting to become better but I don't want to stop harming.

 

[martyrdom]

I don't hate myself at all and I self harm quite a lot.

 

[underairpressure]

I'm the same, the vast majority of my self-harm isn't motivated by negative feelings or self-hate. My scars are one of the only parts about myself I like, honestly....... and. Idk, I just feel this "want" to do it, it just feels good and Right to me, to self-injure.

I always feel like an alien talking about it in SH circles, though, since most other people seem to do it to deal with negative emotions

 

[leangenerator]

I'm the same, the vast majority of my self-harm isn't motivated by negative feelings or self-hate. My scars are one of the only parts about myself I like, honestly....... and. Idk, I just feel this "want" to do it, it just feels good and Right to me, to self-injure.

I always feel like an alien talking about it in SH circles, though, since most other people seem to do it to deal with negative emotions

Well, i feel the exact same xP

 

[Forever Sleep]

That's an interesting question. I don't self harm much and, not severely. I'm too squemish for cutting. I used to whack myself over the head with things or, slap myself in the face. But- that was more motivated by self hatred. Or more like very intense frustration with myself.

There again, if I hurt myself accidentally, a part of me enjoys the expression of feeling pain. That isn't self hatred. That's more an outward representation/ manifestation of what's going on emotionally anyway.

 

[lilies.in.heaven]

For me, it was simply feeling something intense, not mattering what I put my body through

I consider my times with cocaine also a kind of self harm

 

[amor.dor]

Maybe you do it to feel something different, or at least to feel something. Could it be that deep down you are looking to feel something real?
From what I have studied and analyzed for a long time, many people commit SH because of immense sadness, anger, or as a way to vent emotional pain into something physical.
If you have doubts about what I'm saying, there is an experiment with painkillers, in which a person suffering from heartbreak can feel some relief after taking them, since an area of the brain related to physical pain is also related to emotional pain. But back to the subject,there are also people who SH because, otherwise, they would commit suicide in a very painful way because they would be desperate. I have seen this case, and this was my case, even though I haven't self-harmed in years.

 

[dogdrool]

I feel the same. I'm kind of addicted to the way they look and I get a sense of accomplishment when my scars look a certain way or are at a certain depth. That feeling of accomplishment isn't something I've been able to get from anything else which I guess is what keeps me hooked.
I mostly just do it when I'm bored.

 

[fruitninjamaster]

According to my therapist the real reason people self harm is because you can have 1 million problems but when you are injured your brain can only think about one thing.
I definitely hate myself but sometimes I just cut for fun or for scars.

 

[Xi-Xi]

I started out of self-hate, now I do it more so out of habit