OnnanokoNiNaritai
💗女の子になりたい 💗
- Jan 9, 2026
- 18
So i know that this post is nothing compared to what is ussualy seen and posted here but i think this is the best place where i can share this kind of toughts and emotions.
Recently i have had some problems whit my now ex boyfriend and it was some reaally dark times and i still cant belive in what he did. After this happening i got really demoralized and demotivated to do many of the things i used to enjoy in life, but now, even tough stuff about him still happens and even worse things have hit me trough the corse of my life i feel happier than ever. I feel super happy but extreamly unstable because i love living life and at the same time i cut myself, in a moment im super happy and in the other i go downwards as quick as i come upwards, having existencial crisis and SH episodes that can get really extreme.
Im saying all this to tell you that even though terrible shit is happening to me, for some reason im the happiest i have ever been, im also having trouble whit tons of friendships and im in one of the lower states of my life together whit the recent death of one of my friends but i still feel.... Happy?
Its also really weird to describe that i feel happy but i also feel sad at the same time. I feel so positive and always try to help everyone arround me but suddenly things hit me and i start crying and cutting myself.
I feel like i dont have the right to be sad at all cuz of this things because there are people out there dying in wars, starving to death or even going trough so much that dying feels like their only option, meanwhile im here, whitout the need to think if i will have something to eat tomorrow, if i will have a place to stay when i come back home or if i will wake up the next day and have my rights of being who i wish taken away, yet i still cut myself and feel sad sometimes.
Is it normal to feel this way or am i being afected by my own dysphoria into thinking what im going trough is not that serious?
Anyways take care everyone and have an amazing day, if u need help or have a similar problem u can talk to me and i will do my best to help.
Recently i have had some problems whit my now ex boyfriend and it was some reaally dark times and i still cant belive in what he did. After this happening i got really demoralized and demotivated to do many of the things i used to enjoy in life, but now, even tough stuff about him still happens and even worse things have hit me trough the corse of my life i feel happier than ever. I feel super happy but extreamly unstable because i love living life and at the same time i cut myself, in a moment im super happy and in the other i go downwards as quick as i come upwards, having existencial crisis and SH episodes that can get really extreme.
Im saying all this to tell you that even though terrible shit is happening to me, for some reason im the happiest i have ever been, im also having trouble whit tons of friendships and im in one of the lower states of my life together whit the recent death of one of my friends but i still feel.... Happy?
Its also really weird to describe that i feel happy but i also feel sad at the same time. I feel so positive and always try to help everyone arround me but suddenly things hit me and i start crying and cutting myself.
I feel like i dont have the right to be sad at all cuz of this things because there are people out there dying in wars, starving to death or even going trough so much that dying feels like their only option, meanwhile im here, whitout the need to think if i will have something to eat tomorrow, if i will have a place to stay when i come back home or if i will wake up the next day and have my rights of being who i wish taken away, yet i still cut myself and feel sad sometimes.
Is it normal to feel this way or am i being afected by my own dysphoria into thinking what im going trough is not that serious?
Anyways take care everyone and have an amazing day, if u need help or have a similar problem u can talk to me and i will do my best to help.
