Self care..

[Rome Horseman]

When thinking about CTB do anyone else stop taking care of themselves? I still go to work, and go to my group meetings.. sometimes smaller things, but those are seldom

 

[Thereisnothing]

Things such as showering/washing/cleaning teeth/motivation etc can get poor and if dont keep this in check, find gets worse and longer you stop doing them the harder becomes. I find when very very low and wanting to CTB that nothing matters at all, but I want to nurture myself at same time, but just cant do that. Its very hard to explain. By the way welcome here and hope you find the site/forum as helpful and friendly as I have, for the most its a very friendly, knowledgeable place.

 

[TheEndof]

I go through the motions because I've been so used to getting by and at least looking like I'm put together. It's become more of a autopilot type of thing than a real need or desire for self care.

 

[Cevapcici]

Myeah I've given up on self care pretty much ( at the exception of basic hygiene ). I wonder if it contributes to my inner vicious circle of suicidal ideation...

 

[Ghost2211]

I'm going to keep living as long as I'm alive. I will take care of myself and those around me until my final breath.

 

[SuicideBoys93]

When thinking about CTB do anyone else stop taking care of themselves? I still go to work, and go to my group meetings.. sometimes smaller things, but those are seldom

No I don't, I simply mask how I feel. People don't get it, partly why I quit going to therapy. It's the same old cliche therapy sessions. You need to get out more, you just need to be happy. My therapist couldn't grasp that I didn't want be around these happy people when I feel like dog shit. But back to your OT I still go through life taking care what I need to take care of while being completely fed up with the bs. World don't stop cause I'm in a bad mood. Sucks, but life is life. Wu Tang said it best, life's a bitch, and then you die.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I will continue carrying for myself for as long as it shall take, I see no point putting my body through more pain and torture then it has already and then it needs too be put through.

 

[Jean4]

Went months without showering or brushing my teeth. I write it on my list of things to do every day. Since found so, my rashes are gone and my gums no longer bleed.

 

[Banquo501]

I go through the motions.

 

[HelensNepenthe]

Went months without showering or brushing my teeth. I write it on my list of things to do every day. Since found so, my rashes are gone and my gums no longer bleed.

I relate to this a lot. I use my phone to track habits and tasks so I get them done or my depression will make me avoid them.

 

[highlyvolatile]

Admittedly its hard showering brushing my teeth and all that.. I stopped taking my meds. Barely eat. I still interact with family and text people but the other things dont happen as much. I have this anti deprrssant medication im on but I dont take it cause I feel it makes me more emotional and stuff. I lie to family and friends sometimes that I care for myself, but I'm not.

I relate to this a lot. I use my phone to track habits and tasks so I get them done or my depression will make me avoid them.
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I tried using my phone to track things but I can barely keep up with anything nowdays honestly.

 

[Epsilon0]

All I do is think about myself. I take up all my time. It's a selfish, all-consuming relationship that I cannot break.

 

[Rome Horseman]

Admittedly its hard showering brushing my teeth and all that.. I stopped taking my meds. Barely eat. I still interact with family and text people but the other things dont happen as much. I have this anti deprrssant medication im on but I dont take it cause I feel it makes me more emotional and stuff. I lie to family and friends sometimes that I care for myself, but I'm not.



I tried using my phone to track things but I can barely keep up with anything nowdays honestly.

I love you dude or dudette!! I can totally relate! I take my medicine tho.. if it can help it helps..

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

I still take care of myself every single day even though it takes a lot of energy. People wonder why I'm so tired all the time. It's because living is hard people. It's exhausting not only mentally but also physically and I'm not sure my friends understand that

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Comes and goes in cycles. I think through my laziness I have developed a certain efficiency in keeping everything clean over the years. But yeah brushing my teeth and deep cleaning the house are big ones I struggle with. Also getting a haircut isn't something I look forward to when depressed. I cut my own hair for a whole year because of anxiety, even though I had a job and could go to parties I somehow couldn't go to the fuckijg barber shop

 

[mesohappy]

I pulled my own tooth with a pair of rusty pliers and no anesthetic a few hours ago..I guess that could be considered "self care"(?)