Venting Seeing videos/pics/media of suicide makes me immediately suicidal again.

[ericharrisisgod]

Just saw a video of a girl in the TCC (true crime community) hang herself. Last october, it was another girl in the tcc who threw herself off of a building. Everytime i see these videos or pictures i get so .. sad and angry. How could parents just not notice this? If your kid has an entire WALL dedicated to a shooter, why don't you step in to help???

No one cares until its too late. I hate humanity. It's so selfish and evil. I've been crying all noon. No one noticed when i was toting around a trenchcoat and a kmfdm shirt and my combat boots, acting all tough and scary. no one noticed when i was cutting myself

In the words of buckshot "if i had a gun i think i'd blow my head off"

I did get close to dying though. I accidentally overdosed on THC and felt my brain shutting off. scary shit. my brain started playing happy memories of my childhood. I felt cold.. scared. I think im lucky to be alive but part of me wishes i had died.

 

[sanctionedusage]

what, how much THC? there still hasnt been a documented fatal OD from it

 

[ericharrisisgod]

114.5 mg. Lol i was probably just super high but it felt like I was dying. I'm super sensitive to medication in general so it probably felt like 200+ mg for my body combined with the fact that I'm very low BMI and i was on an empty stomach.

 

[sanctionedusage]

100% greening out

i used to green out constantly when i was close to underweight, as did someone else i knew w bmi 16-17. vomiting, labored breathing, disorientation, sweating, 'blackouts.'

everyone else smoked just as much or even more and never had the same experience besides bad anxiety and manual breathing. its probably related to an underweight person's metabolism making it build up faster and break down slower. weed sucks lol