Seeing so many people going

[Idontmatter]

I'm noticing more and more are ctbing lately. While I'm happy that they are no longer suffering it still stings each time I see one go. I've talked to a couple of people on here in private messages who were so nice and are now presumably gone. This is making me want to get my stuff in order even quicker so I can move on. I don't have any friends really so it won't mean much to anyone when I go except to my husband. This makes for another sad day.

 

[Carlotta16]

I'm noticing more and more are ctbing lately. While I'm happy that they are no longer suffering it still stings each time I see one go. I've talked to a couple of people on here in private messages who were so nice and are now presumably gone. This is making me want to get my stuff in order even quicker so I can move on. I don't have any friends really so it won't mean much to anyone when I go except to my husband. This makes for another sad day.

I am completely feeling the same right now. My wife is the only one who will care when I'm gone and maybe my boss and team leader at work. I'm so jealous that people can ctb. I have all the things I need here to do it buy I am still delaying

 

[Idontmatter]

I am completely feeling the same right now. My wife is the only one who will care when I'm gone and maybe my boss and team leader at work. I'm so jealous that people can ctb. I have all the things I need here to do it buy I am still delaying

Im sorry you are going through this. I know it's a daily battle. I'm only delaying because of my husband. I do all the finances so I have to make sure everything is set for him when I go. I'm still tentatively planning for July but very tempted to do it June.

 

[lostmylove]

I wonder if the summer makes things difficult. Seeing people wanting to be happy, go to the beach go on vacations stuff normal people do.
Alien to me in this world of darkness.

 

[Oblivion Access]

It seems to me like things are getting worse and they'll only continue to get worse. I wish one of my ODs had taken me out to spare me experiencing this year, the devil only knows what kind of atrocities we're yet to see.

 

[dredd1981]

I'm jealous that you guys have partners. My wife and I had been together for 13 years, she kicked me out of the house after I had a mental breakdown at the end of last year. She claims we had turned into "friends" rather than a married couple…..it was such a kick in the balls to lose my mind then lose my wife and home. Atm me and my two dogs are living with my mum….it could be worse, I could be homeless….but the sting is that whenever mum dies I'm going to be all alone in this world. If you have a partner who loves you, cherish them!

 

[Idontmatter]

I'm jealous that you guys have partners. My wife and I had been together for 13 years, she kicked me out of the house after I had a mental breakdown at the end of last year. She claims we had turned into "friends" rather than a married couple…..it was such a kick in the balls to lose my mind then lose my wife and home. Atm me and my two dogs are living with my mum….it could be worse, I could be homeless….but the sting is that whenever mum dies I'm going to be all alone in this world. If you have a partner who loves you, cherish them!

I'm so sorry. That had to hurt going through a mental breakdown and a breakup. I definitely cherish my partner. He stuck with me during my last mental breakdown and this one. The guilt is tearing me up that I'm going to kill myself and knowing he will be devastated. If a miracle happens and I find a treatment that works I would love to stay alive. Kind of given up on that.. if you ever need to talk I'm always here.

It seems to me like things are getting worse and they'll only continue to get worse. I wish one of my ODs had taken me out to spare me experiencing this year, the devil only knows what kind of atrocities we're yet to see.

I agree it does seem to be getting worse. Plus it's hard to find treatments that work on depression.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

What can we say? Life sucks for many of us here :(

 

[FuneralCry]

I envy those who are gone as nothing can hurt them and they cannot suffer anymore. Non existence is what I want the most and when I think about death, life seems so temporary and meaningless in comparison. Rest in peace to all those who are gone, I wish that it is easier for me to find the peace that I so desperately need.