Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
Sorry for the few posts. A few years ago I had a violent reaction to dangerous meds (they're all dangerous) and it was compounded by getting taken by ambulance by shitty paramedics that left me in a wheelchair to die at the hospital and then a racist nurse refused to help me.
Basically I was left for six hours and received zero assistance from the hospital and a dr finally told me to get the fuck out there. At 4:30 am I got home and realized my life was over, I stopped all of my crappy meds at once and one of those was Xanax, I told my dr what happened and that I had stopped all of my meds and he never said a fucking word...nothing!

I ended up going through the worst withdrawals ever combined with muscle, nerve, brain and kidney damage. I didn't realize that I was even going through withdrawals, I thought it was just the damage. My therapist told me to sue the dr and the hospital, my ex threatened to break up with me if I sued (my ex actually had demanded I keep taking the crap meds after being on them for two days and said I wanted to stop them)
I never ended up suing, the dr and hospital changed their notes and covered their assholes very well and I spent over 60k trying to fix the damage. Eighteen months after the damage happened I ended up making a plan to die and it got interrupted and was taken to the hospital (my favourite place).
My ex picked me up in the morning and when we got home,said I was to now sleep on the couch, what a sweetheart of a person.

My ex then broke into my email account and went through everything and saw that I had been chatting with a couple of other people regarding suicide. I have absolutely zero idea of how I never did something that would land me in jail for a good twenty years. I felt like smashing every single fucking window out of the house and then waiting for the cops to arrive and go after them with a sledgehammer of death.

This is fucked, I saw that my ex was a sucker of cocks at the beginning and well, once a sucker of cocks, always a sucker of cocks...most people are incapable of change.
Once I made a plan to die, a couple of so-called friends stopped talking to me. I can'tbelieve all of this happened and I got fucked over so badly, how the goddamn hell could this have been worse??

My ex then started talking to my dr behind my back which is violently against the law and my dr even admitted it was against the law

I need a gun
Peace/hugs...DEATH
 
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Wreck-it-Riley

Wreck-it-Riley

My demon will see me undone
Oct 20, 2019
269
I understand that the medical field blow. i have been on waiting lists for 3 years, and was just told it will be another year and a half for me. but my friend got in to the same DR in 6 months. he is the gate keeper to my surgeries. even after i see him the waits for the surgery could be another 3 years...

But from lost test results, entire files missing, hospitals sending me home with pills i just tried to kill myself with, the medical world is absolute shit.
 
metalchic_74

metalchic_74

Gone Girl
Oct 26, 2019
260
I can totally relate. I had a suicide attempt 2 years ago. I was admitted to psych hospital. The only meds I was taking at that time was Effexor and Klonopin. The asshole doctor assigned to me took me off both meds cold turkey. He put me on bs bipolar medication called Latuda. Horrible withdrawals extreme Insomnia. I was in complete psychosis. They kept me there against my will for a month milking every dime from my insurance company. Once the insurance stopped paying they released me in very bad condition. I tried to sue that doctor but it's extremely difficult they protect themselves from malpractice. Long story short I have not been able to sleep naturally on my own without medications. This has ruined my life and the #1 reason I am gonna ctb
 
FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,782
I need a gun
Peace/hugs...DEATH

I wish I could do something to make you feel better. But I'm not surprised--either on the ex front or the professional medical services front. It's a wonder far more people aren't seriously suicidal, SI notwithstanding. We humans ourselves are a major motivation of suicidal ideation in each other.

A hug from out there. (Happy to listen or talk if you ever want to PM.)
 

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