Screw the risks. I’m ordering it

[Everydayismisery]

I'm literally beyond done. I posted yesterday about hoping to be in a body bag today and I truly meant it. I tried a new strategy for partial last night by taking a few Clonozepam to help me overcome SI. SI still effing kicked in even though I was out of it.

The second N is available I'm ordering it. I know for a fact I can drink from a stupid cup. My life is over anyway from this stupid movement disorder. I don't care if it gets seized and I get a visit from LE, locked up, charged or sent to the ward. I literally do not care at all. Because whenever I get out I will keep trying.

I have nothing to live for, I have a loving family but I'm not going to stick around suffering just so they're happy I'm here. I live in the states so I know SN isn't illegal & would definitely use that but Idk where to get it. I've read on here for months about IC, I don't even know who/what that is but apparently that takes 30+ days to be delivered according to other threads & im not waiting that long. Hoping the N source comes thru soon.

 

[picklemick]

I tried partial a couple times over the weekend. Was impossible. As soon as I felt pressure I panicked every time. I think I can drink from a cup too I fuck a lot of shit up but hopefully can figure that out.

 

[deathisnear]

SI is a bitch, especially with partial. Hoping you can make a peaceful exit soon if that's what you choose

 

[dustyfurcollector]

I'm literally beyond done. I posted yesterday about hoping to be in a body bag today and I truly meant it. I tried a new strategy for partial last night by taking a few Clonozepam to help me overcome SI. SI still effing kicked in even though I was out of it.

The second N is available I'm ordering it. I know for a fact I can drink from a stupid cup. My life is over anyway from this stupid movement disorder. I don't care if it gets seized and I get a visit from LE, locked up, charged or sent to the ward. I literally do not care at all. Because whenever I get out I will keep trying.

I have nothing to live for, I have a loving family but I'm not going to stick around suffering just so they're happy I'm here. I live in the states so I know SN isn't illegal & would definitely use that but Idk where to get it. I've read on here for months about IC, I don't even know who/what that is but apparently that takes 30+ days to be delivered according to other threads & im not waiting that long. Hoping the N source comes thru soon.

It's really available in a sealed, alright bag on the dick rockets site. I think it's here in the states. I already have mine, so I didn't check on how long it'd take to get to me, but it's there

 

[Everydayismisery]

I tried partial a couple times over the weekend. Was impossible. As soon as I felt pressure I panicked every time. I think I can drink from a cup too I fuck a lot of shit up but hopefully can figure that out.

Lol! Literally same. Idk how I can mess up drinking from a cup. After failing for at least the 20th time last night, I had a glass of water next to my bed & imagined it was N & drank half the glass. laid there thinking damn this would be so nice. Just chill, have some final thoughts and peace out

SI is a bitch, especially with partial. Hoping you can make a peaceful exit soon if that's what you choose

Thank you. I'm currently watching forensic files and every time they talk about the victim being killed I'm like damn I wish that was me.

 

[Theanswer]

It's really available in a sealed, alright bag on the dick rockets site. I think it's here in the states. I already have mine, so I didn't check on how long it'd take to get to me, but it's there

WTF?????????????? Admins

 

[dustyfurcollector]

WTF?????????????? Admins

I'm hardly the cutest person to mention the site. And it's totally legal to purchase in the states so there's no legal problem. If I'm too be chastised, then fine. But I've seen it everywhere on here, so that's why I posted it. It's it needs to be taken down... Then fine. But it's not at all illegal here. Geez

 

[locked*n*loaded]

t's really available in a sealed, alright bag on the dick rockets site. I think it's here in the states. I already have mine, so I didn't check on how long it'd take to get to me, but it's there

WTF?????????????? Admins

What's wrong with @iamchickenhat post? It's against the rules to post sources, so @iamchickenhat used descriptors to describe the site where SN can be purchased, which is perfectly fine.

 

[Everydayismisery]

I'm hardly the cutest person to mention the site. And it's totally legal to purchase in the states so there's no legal problem. If I'm too be chastised, then fine. But I've seen it everywhere on here, so that's why I posted it. It's it needs to be taken down... Then fine. But it's not at all illegal here. Geez

I've been searching there but nothing I can find states the purity or whatever. I've read the megathread and apparently there's a science to it to get the perfect one lol I don't want to get the wrong thing and end up doing serious damage and still alive lol

 

[FuneralCry]

Hanging sounds like such a difficult and risky method and I have never personally attempted it as I fear it going wrong in some way. I envy those with the option of N, it must be a relief for them having a way to peacefully exit. It is cruel for the society to try to deny people a peaceful ctb. After all, wanting suicide can be perfectly rational in a world like this. I understand being desperate to leave and I know that it is hard to carry on when you suffer so much. Life really is so horrible. I hope that you find what you are looking for.