The Ferryman
Member
- Nov 27, 2023
- 11
You know, this world is too big. Too many people, too long of a life, too much stuff to worry about. It's been nigh impossible to find any new friends since we graduated high school last year and man, how has anybody made it past this stage? It's like, constantly fighting inner thoughts whenever we try to interact with somebody new, you're never good enough, they already have a small group of friends, you could never fit in, it's all so nerve wracking! Don't even know what is wrong, been trying to get a psychiatrist before we ctb so we can have some answers to why we've utterly failed at life and being in this infinite road block fucking sucks. We've entirely lost our old friend group, now only checking in sometimes because we're a horrible person that has grown "tired(?)" of them and now we just sit at the computer every day, talking to nobody but ourself because we're so self centred. We've grown tired of waiting, but nothing ever happens, the world is too big, too many people, too much stress to put ourself out there and it's like we're constantly screaming into a void. No sound, no voice, no response, nothing! We get ignored constantly and even if a glimmer comes through somehow, it doesn't matter because nothing ever stems from a 2 word interaction, no matter what we can never win! An endless cat and mouse game, it causes so much unhappiness but we get easily distracted so 50% of the time we just don't care. We only seek others to make the days pass easier, to make our limited time left a little bit more bearable, because god forbid we live the full 80~ years, the endless cycle of work, stress of the future, trying to maintain a house, the fact we're even born feels like a crime. It's almost over though, we can put up with this garbage for just a few more months, waiting to get our name changed then we're fucking BOOKING it off this pathetic excuse for a world. Fuck anybody who seriously expected people to accept a miserable cycle to be normal, this shit sucks. <3
