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ikadasui

ikadasui

Arcanist
May 29, 2018
463
The days are genuine torture. Distractions rarely work anymore it's just a mental flying at all waking moments. I plan to be gone very soon
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
6,388
Whenever this happens to me, I'm grateful I have double-glazed windows so there's no chance of the neighbours hearing my utterances.

Sending you cat hugs.

Sddefault
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,266
I do understand that it really can be so dreadful feeling trapped in an existence that is just constant suffering, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you are searching for, best wishes.
 
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ikadasui

Arcanist
May 29, 2018
463
I do understand that it really can be so dreadful feeling trapped in an existence that is just constant suffering, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you are searching for, best wishes.
Thanks friend
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,262
I scream in my car, no need to possibly concern the neighbors and end up with cops at my door.
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,803
Best wishes for somehow, some way achieving peace. We feel your screams, though they are silent to us.
 
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day

Global Mod
Jun 24, 2023
658
Living in such a grotesque world is definitely unbearable. I wish we all had access to safer more reliable ways to CTB. Feeling and being trapped is so horrible.

I hope you manage to find peace someday soon OP.. you don't deserve to feel this way.
 
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tieiwi

Experienced
Dec 11, 2021
248
It's very therapeutic in a way to be able to scream with no one around. I'm wishing you peace.
 
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TDF

TDF

Meh might as well die
Jun 24, 2023
475
I have been silently screaming for weeks, will scream through the ether with u aaaaaaaaaarrrrrghh!!!
 
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MalboroMan420

Member
Jul 1, 2023
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When I am home alone I tend to blast music. This is one of my new finds :) Everlast
 
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Jolene79

Experienced
Jun 16, 2023
205
I cry hysterically at moments throughout the day, every single day. I live in very severe pain and it tortures me. Someone lives below me and just hope they can't hear it 😬
 
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Techef

Student
Jun 19, 2023
124
I try not to do this since I live in an apt complex, but ever since my diagnoses just before the pandemic and gradually losing touch with everyone as they realized I wasn't getting better, I've exploded 2-3 times a year. Thankfully all I ever got was noise complaints through the office management with no police involvement. I stopped having the energy to scream though since about 10 months ago, though.
 
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Jolene79

Experienced
Jun 16, 2023
205
I try not to do this since I live in an apt complex, but ever since my diagnoses just before the pandemic and gradually losing touch with everyone as they realized I wasn't getting better, I've exploded 2-3 times a year. Thankfully all I ever got was noise complaints through the office management with no police involvement. I stopped having the energy to scream though since about 10 months ago, though.

Isn't it horrid that you can't just scream your head off without worrying for goodness sake. That's the good thing about a car. I get why you can't where you live. I'd prob be the same thinking wtf, shut up without really appreciating what's going on with that person.
 
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