Scared of the truth

[Natbee]

As time passes, I feel broken and shattered. I feel that taking my life will make things easier for everyone else.

I've been dealing with my mental health being so chronic for the last 15 months that I'm scared that my family won't even mourn. I've hurt them so much. I feel like they were just expected to happen.

I'm trying to get well. I'm taking the right medication, but I feel so empty.

Tell me it's going to get better
Tell me that I can get through this
Because I'm giving up soon, I can feel it in me

 

[Max1714]

As time passes, I feel broken and shattered. I feel that taking my life will make things easier for everyone else.

I've been dealing with my mental health being so chronic for the last 15 months that I'm scared that my family won't even mourn. I've hurt them so much. I feel like they were just expected to happen.

I'm trying to get well. I'm taking the right medication, but I feel so empty.

Tell me it's going to get better
Tell me that I can get through this
Because I'm giving up soon, I can feel it in me

No one here can say that things will get better for you. We don't know who you are or why you're on this app. Things may never get better that's just life. Life is complicated, but you're not alone. Everyone on this app is here because they've lost something in some way. I don't know why you're here, and it's not my business, but pick yourself up and find what brings you meaning. Sometimes loving someone or something means letting go. Know that no matter where you go in life, you are not alone. The people on SS understand your pain we're here for you. I believe in you. Now go kick life in the fucking teeth, and when you're done, look back at what you survived. I wish you luck.

 

[Dot]

As time passes, I feel broken and shattered. I feel that taking my life will make things easier for everyone else.

I've been dealing with my mental health being so chronic for the last 15 months that I'm scared that my family won't even mourn. I've hurt them so much. I feel like they were just expected to happen.

I'm trying to get well. I'm taking the right medication, but I feel so empty.

Tell me it's going to get better
Tell me that I can get through this
Because I'm giving up soon, I can feel it in me

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[Jamesbond]

As time passes, I feel broken and shattered. I feel that taking my life will make things easier for everyone else.

I've been dealing with my mental health being so chronic for the last 15 months that I'm scared that my family won't even mourn. I've hurt them so much. I feel like they were just expected to happen.

I'm trying to get well. I'm taking the right medication, but I feel so empty.

Tell me it's going to get better
Tell me that I can get through this
Because I'm giving up soon, I can feel it in me

I have better and worse days, as I've got older I have a lot less good days and my definition of a good day is a lot less than it was 10 years ago. But I've seen people who have had issues with mental health go on to become really well. There is no crystal ball unfortunately. Your family will mourn. I've distanced myself from my family for years because of my mental health. They will be sad but in reality it won't impact them day to day I'm lucky if I see them once a year now

 

[nitrogenous]

As time passes, I feel broken and shattered. I feel that taking my life will make things easier for everyone else.

I've been dealing with my mental health being so chronic for the last 15 months that I'm scared that my family won't even mourn. I've hurt them so much. I feel like they were just expected to happen.

I'm trying to get well. I'm taking the right medication, but I feel so empty.

Tell me it's going to get better
Tell me that I can get through this
Because I'm giving up soon, I can feel it in me

Hey mate, sorry to hear you still feeling this way. Life is indeed so difficult when you just feel… nothing and empty. It's like," what's the point?"

Just wanted to comfort you knowing that a lot of people in this forum are going through difficult things, same with me and that we are always happy to try and be a listening ear. I hope we both can go through this hard time together, despite the shitty system we are in.

Life is truly unpredictable, and definitely not linear, but I hope we can build that resilience and skills and with the support of the right meds can make it feel like it's "getting better". It's definitely not as easy as it sounds, and even I myself is still trying to do that, but I truly wish you all the best

 

[Kamaainakupua]

Tell me it's going to get better
Tell me that I can get through this
Because I'm giving up soon, I can feel it in me

I cannot promise you it will get better. I can tell you that when I worked to change my situation, things got different. I will tell you that you can get through this, but you may not like how it happens, or where 'through' will lead you.
Since we're doing this on the recovery side, I can tell you that giving up (accepting what's happening as real, letting go of trying to force life to be what we want instead of what it is) is the first step on the road to recovery. I'm over 50 years old, and have been chasing the bus for 30 years. But part of me keeps coming back, saying, not yet, not today.

If you take action, ask for help, and follow directions, you may create change. I sincerely hope it will get better for you, but I can't, and won't, sugarcoat it. I have too many scars because I wanted 'better' when I should have tried 'different'
As long as you have life, there is chance for hope.

 

[neverexistedd]

its okay to be alive