Scared but want to go

[downndone2]

So scared of the process and leaving my loved ones behind, the SI, will I fail, who will take my dogs, etc

But I'm so sick of living like this. Non-stop anxiety, severe agorophobia, feeling I'm going to fail at new job, depression, the skin condition I fight with, other physical and mental health issues, everything I ruined, and being completely lonely all the time

Just venting. I don't want to live anymore. Hopefully I will soon have the courage

 

[soontobedone]

I don't have pets, but I'm feeling the same as you.

 

[downndone2]

If I dint have grown kids and pets I would've found a way to end it sooner. On top of all else, also just feel so lost, destroyed, like there's no way out of my massive debt, and that things will get worse.

I don't see any solutions other than ctb. It is either work to pay some debt down and delay a bit or do it asap

 

[TimetoGo!]

So scared of the process and leaving my loved ones behind, the SI, will I fail, who will take my dogs, etc

But I'm so sick of living like this. Non-stop anxiety, severe agorophobia, feeling I'm going to fail at new job, depression, the skin condition I fight with, other physical and mental health issues, everything I ruined, and being completely lonely all the time

Just venting. I don't want to live anymore. Hopefully I will soon have the courage

Sounds like you are writing about me…..thats crazy

If I dint have grown kids and pets I would've found a way to end it sooner. On top of all else, also just feel so lost, destroyed, like there's no way out of my massive debt, and that things will get worse.

I don't see any solutions other than ctb. It is either work to pay some debt down and delay a bit or do it asap

Exactly the same mate……horrible feeling isn't it.
Where you from?

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really awful and tiring being trapped in that situation, it's understandable just wishing to be free from all the suffering. But anyway, I wish you the best, I envy those who are already gone from this world.

 

[downndone2]

I'm sorry you are going thru the same situation. It sucks so very badly