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rs929
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- Dec 18, 2020
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It's been 1 month since I began a medical leave because of depression. I found a new job in the meanwhile and I'm supposed to start new week, but I'm so scared. I can't stop thinking of suicide and the idea of working to earn a life I don't want is ridiculous. Also I have the feeling I'm not going to be able to keep up mentally with the job (computer programming). I feel cognitively deteriorated maybe because of depression or the meds I'm taking. I'm also super sensitive to criticism so if a boss complains about my work I automatically feel useless and that my career is over.
Also I can barely walk a couple blocks everyday I can't think of working 9-5.
Anyone here is a depressed programmer? Or someone working with severe depression on their shoulders?
Thanks for reading
Life sucks badly
Also I can barely walk a couple blocks everyday I can't think of working 9-5.
Anyone here is a depressed programmer? Or someone working with severe depression on their shoulders?
Thanks for reading
Life sucks badly