It made me so sad to read your post. 1st) I send you lots of love, caring and SUPPORT, in the fact that YOU are FAMILY here with everyone. 2nd) Like usual, I am no smarter, probably dumber! than everyone, BUT I do have 65 years of life experience on my side and from my background, believe me in the fact that you will be the one that has the most loving memories of your friend AND your "other" friends that did not include you..well lets say this, what goes around comes around. All my best to you, my loving global family member!!!! Walter ( yep real first name, 65 years young, gray hair and never phony)