Story Same old me

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I have been on this site a year now. I've met some fantastic people on this site some that have left before me but I still think about. Prior to my life has been somewhat brilliant (it's had its challenges don't get me wrong) but I've always been able to overcome them.


I lost my absolute soulmate suddenly last year whilst pregnant and that whole period was one trauma after another. I'm 24 and I honestly feel I'm serving a punishment and I have an overwhelming feeling to be with my husband in the ground should that be eternal life or eternal nothingness. Either way I won't mind

I have attempted various methods came very close once but was found to soon and since tried to give it a go of living. Though I now feel like I'm at a stage of just peace there is no rush feeling of I need to ctb right now like I had but a feeling of I want to get a proper date and get the job done finally. I feel quite proud I've made it a year but now I'm ready.... happy to leave.

So deciding between SN and Carbon. Though if I eat a vegetable I might send myself into shock and die anyhow because I eat such crap when I do actually eat !!!

I would prefer to do Carbon but I have quite a nice car that I spent my savings on and I don't want to ruin the value of it? Can't decide which to do !! Argh

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Hmmm, the question that comes to mind is, Which do you value more and want to experience less damage, your car or your body? Perhaps the car could be reframed as an additional investment in the best method if you and your body prefer carbon.

Enjoyed the vegetable humor. :)