I have been on this site a year now. I've met some fantastic people on this site some that have left before me but I still think about. Prior to my life has been somewhat brilliant (it's had its challenges don't get me wrong) but I've always been able to overcome them.
I lost my absolute soulmate suddenly last year whilst pregnant and that whole period was one trauma after another. I'm 24 and I honestly feel I'm serving a punishment and I have an overwhelming feeling to be with my husband in the ground should that be eternal life or eternal nothingness. Either way I won't mind
I have attempted various methods came very close once but was found to soon and since tried to give it a go of living. Though I now feel like I'm at a stage of just peace there is no rush feeling of I need to ctb right now like I had but a feeling of I want to get a proper date and get the job done finally. I feel quite proud I've made it a year but now I'm ready.... happy to leave.
So deciding between SN and Carbon. Though if I eat a vegetable I might send myself into shock and die anyhow because I eat such crap when I do actually eat !!!
I would prefer to do Carbon but I have quite a nice car that I spent my savings on and I don't want to ruin the value of it? Can't decide which to do !! Argh
I lost my absolute soulmate suddenly last year whilst pregnant and that whole period was one trauma after another. I'm 24 and I honestly feel I'm serving a punishment and I have an overwhelming feeling to be with my husband in the ground should that be eternal life or eternal nothingness. Either way I won't mind
I have attempted various methods came very close once but was found to soon and since tried to give it a go of living. Though I now feel like I'm at a stage of just peace there is no rush feeling of I need to ctb right now like I had but a feeling of I want to get a proper date and get the job done finally. I feel quite proud I've made it a year but now I'm ready.... happy to leave.
So deciding between SN and Carbon. Though if I eat a vegetable I might send myself into shock and die anyhow because I eat such crap when I do actually eat !!!
I would prefer to do Carbon but I have quite a nice car that I spent my savings on and I don't want to ruin the value of it? Can't decide which to do !! Argh
