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Sadbanana
God doesn't care
- Aug 20, 2024
- 38
Hello. I'm in a wierd situation in my life, when I don't wanna kill myself (I'm not scared of not existing at all. I'm scared of infinity, those that tries dmt will maybe understand), but also don't wanna live. Well, thats my story so lets get to the important part.
I realized that when I just stab myself with pen it doesn't feel so bad. I hate pain tbh, but when I'm in control and can stop whenever I want, it makes me feel... well in control. And maybe I'll get used to pain and me more able to cope with emotional pain of life.
It left some scars on my hand, I know my mom would really freak out if she saw, she knows I'm depressed and is scared about me, also I don't want to regret it later so it better be safe. What would you recomend?
I know it's not difficult and if I just used my brain for a sec I could probably answer my question, but interacting with people on this forum makes me feel better, so I'm gonna ask anyways
Edit: I decided to not start self harm. Thank you guys for talking some reason into me.
I realized that when I just stab myself with pen it doesn't feel so bad. I hate pain tbh, but when I'm in control and can stop whenever I want, it makes me feel... well in control. And maybe I'll get used to pain and me more able to cope with emotional pain of life.
It left some scars on my hand, I know my mom would really freak out if she saw, she knows I'm depressed and is scared about me, also I don't want to regret it later so it better be safe. What would you recomend?
I know it's not difficult and if I just used my brain for a sec I could probably answer my question, but interacting with people on this forum makes me feel better, so I'm gonna ask anyways
Edit: I decided to not start self harm. Thank you guys for talking some reason into me.
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