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[ChronicPain23]

I have been NEET for several years and have mental problems(depression, neurosis, anxiety) that make it hard for me to go to work. I feel that I have lost my life because of a sick head, because of
neuroticism. I am sensitive, I worry about trivial things.
Life experiences have shown me that life has no mercy for people like me. Strangers treated me badly, destroyed my psyche.

The last few days I have been reflecting on my life, I have serious suicidal thoughts, I feel I won't get out of this anymore. In addition, the sight of happy people kills me.
I'm 23 years old never worked, never had a girlfriend, but I feel it's unattainable and I need to do CTB.

I don't fit into society, I was born that way.
Suffering here is so difficult.

 

[deomlez]

You are not alone. You arze in the right place to share all that with open minded people.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence really is so cruel, it's such a horrible world we exist in where people suffer all through no fault of their own and it's true that there is too much suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best, it must be so awful feeling trapped in that situation.

 

[The anhedonic one]

Mental health problems have basically destroyed my life.
I've missed out on so many things, and have never been happy.
Life is just so dreadfully cruel to many of us here.