
rotten
Student
- Apr 14, 2021
- 154
They always tell you to stay and tough it out, not to run from your problems, or that you'll never make it by yourself.
This mindset..... the one that's been embedded in me since I was a child, is the reason why I can't step out the front door. I've always felt like I don't have the right to leave. However something within me is screaming at me to save myself. I'm constantly battling these feelings, "Don't leave you'll never make it and your being overdramatic" and "leave now! You can finally have a life!"
I have the opportunity to leave with someone who actually cares for me. I'm terrified of doing so...yet I feel stupid for still being here. I don't know what to do anymore.
This mindset..... the one that's been embedded in me since I was a child, is the reason why I can't step out the front door. I've always felt like I don't have the right to leave. However something within me is screaming at me to save myself. I'm constantly battling these feelings, "Don't leave you'll never make it and your being overdramatic" and "leave now! You can finally have a life!"
I have the opportunity to leave with someone who actually cares for me. I'm terrified of doing so...yet I feel stupid for still being here. I don't know what to do anymore.