Ruminating 24/7

[KiraLittleOwl]

Anybody else?
This is truly exhausting... I eat only for my brain to have energy to torture me, I have zero physical activity, I lay in bed all the time.
It never stops, even when I am talking to someone.
I am trying not to wake up because my thoughts are quiter if I am not fully awakened.
I am so tired.

 

[GoBack]

Yeah it makes me not eat sometimes on purpose cause I know my mind will stay quiter. Makes it worse though after a while

 

[Walilamdzi]

I'm very similar.

 

[WhathaveIdone]

Anybody else?
This is truly exhausting... I eat only for my brain to have energy to torture me, I have zero physical activity, I lay in bed all the time.
It never stops, even when I am talking to someone.
I am trying not to wake up because my thoughts are quiter if I am not fully awakened.
I am so tired

I have this minus the being able to talk to someone

 

[deadpixels]

I'm living that same nightmare, every day, when I open my eyes. When I sleep I hope I never wake up but the following day, everything happens again, the same nightmare, I can't even distinguish one day from the other.

 

[Walilamdzi]

I'm living that same nightmare, every day, when I open my eyes. When I sleep I hope I never wake up but the following day, everything happens again, the same nightmare, I can't even distinguish one day from the other.

That's what I've thought every morning for months gosh it sucks so much.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I have this minus the being able to talk to someone

I find it very hard to talk too because of the noise in my head and not having emotions about anything else, I just say something relevant if I can

 

[WhathaveIdone]

Same minus the sleep

 

[Arrow]

see, my mind is just constantly thinking about random pointless shit, and on top of that i'm not emotional at all, so in real life i come across as a dumbass that doesnt care about anything. but yeah my mind definitely used to torment me. now its just resorted to making me look incompetent (which i mean i probably am.)

 

[deadpixels]

I find it very hard to talk too because of the noise in my head and not having emotions about anything else, I just say something relevant if I can

do you say noise as a metaphor or as physical noise?

 

[enjolras]

It happened to me plenty of times before, during weeks. Also to not have the strength to talk. Awful periods without foreseeing a solution. I had to hit rock bottom before emerging with a change of mind.

 

[ZardozOmega]

i keep myself distracted. it is the only way to make the bad thoughts stop

 

[Emily123]

I am like this in weekends . If I don't work, there will be no bed to lay down in it

 

[in hell out soon]

My brains always so loud. Sometimes it stops.

And right now it's not.

 

[Broken Chimera]

My brain never stops. It's annoying but I got used to it. Someone told me that lithium could help but I'm not eager to try it.

 

[Kumachan]

Anybody else?

Oh yes, definitely. You are not alone

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

That's what I've thought every morning for months gosh it sucks so much.

I don't want to fall asleep because waking up is worse than I feeling late in the evening

do you say noise as a metaphor or as physical noise?

Figuratively

 

[theguineapigking]

I don't want to fall asleep because waking up is worse than I feeling late in the evening

Figuratively

Same. I dread going to sleep because I just wake back up! Yay! Another day of existing... I wish I had a heart attack in my sleep.


Sorry you feel so bad. Tv helps me. Does anything distract you like that?

 

[Mr2005]

Anybody else?
This is truly exhausting... I eat only for my brain to have energy to torture me, I have zero physical activity, I lay in bed all the time.
It never stops, even when I am talking to someone.
I am trying not to wake up because my thoughts are quiter if I am not fully awakened.
I am so tired.

I'm truly traumatised

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Same. I dread going to sleep because I just wake back up! Yay! Another day of existing... I wish I had a heart attack in my sleep.


Sorry you feel so bad. Tv helps me. Does anything distract you like that?

Nothing really. I can't concentrate on anything and many things trigger me really badly. I can't even tolerate social media anymore. I am in prison of my head.

 

[Mr2005]

Yours is getting plastic surgery right? Mine is not getting plastic surgery

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Yours is getting plastic surgery right? Mine is not getting plastic surgery

Yeah, irony of this

 

[Nolye]

Anybody else?

Not even YouTube, videogames and tv can help me anymore. I can concentrate for only five minutes, before my mind starts going on the same loop of dread and constant thinking.

Same. I dread going to sleep because I just wake back up! Yay! Another day of existing... I wish I had a heart attack in my sleep.

I thought I was the only one, it makes me feel a little better knowing I'm not.

 

[Mr2005]

I've gone back to bed. 11 in the morning and I've had enough already. Girlfriend keeps me here like a prisoner subjecting me to reality

 

[theguineapigking]

Nothing really. I can't concentrate on anything and many things trigger me really badly. I can't even tolerate social media anymore. I am in prison of my head.

Do you mean that the stupid bull on social media triggers you? Or is it people on there that make you feel left out? If you mean the stupidity on there, yeah, I hate it. I don't use twitter or Snapchat. Only this website and reddit for the most part.(Reddit to learn)


Luckily, a lot of times my emotions are fairly dull. Kind of like 'who gives a shit'. When you say that you have voices in your head, do you mean you literally hear voices(as in it sounds like they're talking), or is it thoughts(don't represent noise..just 'normal' thoughts that represent emotions)? I used to feel like I was going to go nuts sometimes(When I was triggered) and I'd punch my face hard. I Started to use velerian root when I feel like I'm going to jump out of my skin to avoid beating myself up(literally haha)

 

[Mr2005]

Fucking VE day was triggering for not the reasons it should have been. 75 years meaning I've officially wasted a fifth of the time since world war 2. That's fucking atrocious.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Do you mean that the stupid bull on social media triggers you? Or is it people on there that make you feel left out? If you mean the stupidity on there, yeah, I hate it. I don't use twitter or Snapchat. Only this website and reddit for the most part.(Reddit to learn)


Luckily, a lot of times my emotions are fairly dull. Kind of like 'who gives a shit'. When you say that you have voices in your head, do you mean you literally hear voices(as in it sounds like they're talking), or is it thoughts(don't represent noise..just 'normal' thoughts that represent emotions)? I used to feel like I was going to go nuts sometimes(When I was triggered) and I'd punch my face hard. I Started to use velerian root when I feel like I'm going to jump out of my skin to avoid beating myself up(literally haha)

No, it's not the bullies, I get triggered heavily because people actually have lives. Especially relationships and sex, it's everywhere you can't escape it.
I used to go on dates and I can't anymore, I can't live my life, I now have massive insecurities. I feel deformed and ugly because of the damage from plastic surgery. I don't hear voices, but I have intrusive thoughts, obsessions, looped thoughts, all related to the surgery. I am always thinking how could everything gone so wrong and why it has to be this way. How happy I could be if it didn't. And I am hyper aware of my appearance at all times.
My mind is completely broken.

 

[theguineapigking]

I've gone back to bed. 11 in the morning and I've had enough already. Girlfriend keeps me here like a prisoner subjecting me to reality

I'm so sorry to hear that. My family is keeping me here too. I had my sn and everything all ready 5 hours ago. But the thought of them held me back.

At least you have someone who cares for you, ya know?

 

[Mr2005]

The people who don't are envious. They don't know how lucky they are. If you have that and it doesn't change anything then you're in serious trouble. I remember the days I just needed a shag. Good times

 

[HorribleFeelings1]

Anybody else?
This is truly exhausting... I eat only for my brain to have energy to torture me, I have zero physical activity, I lay in bed all the time.
It never stops, even when I am talking to someone.
I am trying not to wake up because my thoughts are quiter if I am not fully awakened.
I am so tired.

HOLY SHIT THIS IS ME, I actually have physical activities to keep me going but only late night walks. But damn I can relate to this A LOT and SO much, I'm always here if you need someone :) much love!!