charlottewilts
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- Jun 15, 2019
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so i know i just got started on Ritalin, i took my first dose this morning (18mg, ER) but i felt such a rush of dopamine it was amazing. it's been 4 hours now and i don't feel ecstatic but i don't feel as bad as i usually do either, when i'm not abusing anything. i should probably mention that i don't have ADHD, but i managed to convince a shrink that i do and he gave me a prescription. music sounds better. water tastes better. fuck, just lying on my bed and typing this feels better. i had enough concentration and willpower to finish something that i was working on, which i never would, i always give up at the first hurdle. i feel like i'm more eloquent and i actually want to socialise. i'll try reading or playing some video games tonight to see if it helps any with anhedonia. i'll also have to see how shitty the comedown will be... i'll update this tomorrow. but for now i actually feel somewhat like i imagine a normal human being would.