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JustSwingingTheD
Experienced
- Jan 31, 2022
- 204
Are there any other hateful people here, who sometimes fantasize about revenge? Let's share the anger.
I find sadism and schadenfreude rather pointless in general, but when it comes to my parents, they really can't die soon enough for me. I sometimes fantasize about killing them before doing myself in. It would be poetic justice. Those useless, moronic c*nts forced me into my fucked up life, and i forced them out of theirs. Simply beautiful.
I just don't want to spend my last moments full of fear of failing and going to jail as a result. It's also that I really don't want to be thinking about them in my last moments. I don't need them raining on my parade.
These are just thoughts i sometimes have, but my parents really repulse me to my core. They are the direct source of all the pointless pain and discomfort i have experienced. I don't believe im here because of a god, i believe im here because my parents wanted to play god. I wish i got to play god with them a little bit too.
Sometimes i wonder how i would have done with some actual narcissists/psychopaths/anti-social people as parents. I do think i would have really ended up massacring them. There is a lot of hatred in me. And then again, maybe if i actually was seriously mentally/physically abused like many people on this forum, and not just neglected, then perhaps I would have turned out pretty much unable of feeling/showing aggression, as a defense-mechanism of a sort. Difficult to say.
I find sadism and schadenfreude rather pointless in general, but when it comes to my parents, they really can't die soon enough for me. I sometimes fantasize about killing them before doing myself in. It would be poetic justice. Those useless, moronic c*nts forced me into my fucked up life, and i forced them out of theirs. Simply beautiful.
I just don't want to spend my last moments full of fear of failing and going to jail as a result. It's also that I really don't want to be thinking about them in my last moments. I don't need them raining on my parade.
These are just thoughts i sometimes have, but my parents really repulse me to my core. They are the direct source of all the pointless pain and discomfort i have experienced. I don't believe im here because of a god, i believe im here because my parents wanted to play god. I wish i got to play god with them a little bit too.
Sometimes i wonder how i would have done with some actual narcissists/psychopaths/anti-social people as parents. I do think i would have really ended up massacring them. There is a lot of hatred in me. And then again, maybe if i actually was seriously mentally/physically abused like many people on this forum, and not just neglected, then perhaps I would have turned out pretty much unable of feeling/showing aggression, as a defense-mechanism of a sort. Difficult to say.