Restaurant to Another world!

[SolomonKado]

I know this may seem out of place here, but this show has me feeling good when everything around me is falling apart. For about 20 years of my life I was a cook who made everything from fried alligator to duck. I loved it so much working as a cook. In the military on submarines I was the happiest in my little kitchen space making dinner roles, pizza crust, rib eye steaks, pecan pie, etc. All by myself. I felt I could make everything and I was good at it. Until people came around my area or me. I would be tore down and treated badly. I could always tell I wasn't a favorite of anyone's.After I left the military I went to work at a prison in their kitchen and thats where food now gives me ptsd. I can't bake or make anything without thinking what people, staff, or supervisors have done to me. I lost my ability to find joy in the things I loved. I should have known my time was up a long time ago, but I kept telling myself it would get better eventually. Delaying the inevitable. I never want anyone to feel the pain I'm in. I have no more tears left. It's all just pain, Cynicism, despair, and sorrow. This can't happen fast enough.