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- Feb 13, 2020
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I read somewhere that suicide and war come from the same issue, resolving different perspectives. War involves hurt directed towards another while suicide involves hurting yourself, but in either case the issue is that the two sides cannot come to a resolution between their different viewpoints. I understand how war is like that and I guess that also explains why my family and doctors have such an issue with suicide and will lock you up if you try. You can't even purchase products in this USA if the sellers know that it will be directed against yourself. I see no issue with me committing suicide as I feel I've permanently fucked my life up and feel I'm unfit for this world. I have so many problems it honestly feels like the best thing to do. I don't have any true friends and it's hard for me to converse with people face to face, especially women, so this place has felt like a haven for me. I try to see things from the people's perspectives that want me to stay alive and find some middle ground, but lots of times that middle ground is suicide itself or I feel so different from them and out of touch with this world that I can't see any reason for continuing. I know lots of you have heard from your doctors and family to have hope and not to do it and have been hospitalized when you tried so I'd like to hear your thoughts about finding a resolution between your suicidal thoughts and plans and the thoughts of the people that want you to stay alive. Maybe it's not even between two different parties in the case of suicide, maybe that's more for war. Maybe it's different perspectives within ourselves that we can't find any common ground, like between having hope against all hope and the hopelessness that all of us here feel at times, probably more often than most. Thoughts...