Venting Repetition

[s.s.scriptties]

Everyday I wake up and repeat the same routine over and over and over again. It feels like a never ending chore. I wake up, go to college, come back home, watch something, eat dinner, watch something again, and sleep, then repeat the cycle every day.

I hate it, I hate the cycle that I go through every fuckin day, sometimes the cycle changes slightly and I do a college assignment or I go out of the house for a few hours but it isn't enough. I don't have a life and I need one. I'm starting to hate my pills that I'm taking too. It's like they have a foul taste in my mouth every time I wake up. I just wanna have friends, a girlfriend, and live a normal life.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I relate to your words. days are definitely blending together minus those that only stand out bc of loss or grief or trauma. it's exhausting to keep waking up. sending you a hug

 

[pauly369]

I feel the same way everyday. Like a hamster going round and round in a wheel.
Most of what we call life is just surviving anyway.
90% survival and the rest actually enjoying life for most average people.
Im currently at 99% survival and 1% enjoying life if Im lucky.
The funny thing is that I dont even want to survive at all.

 

[LimpandNumb]

The rat run is exhausting and I feel the same, it's not enjoyable, for me anyway

 

[ThatGuyOverThere]

That's why free will and humans desires are more of a curse than they are gift, they leave us with the want to experience all the supposed good things in life, yet thrust us into a system in which we are incapable of obtaining these wants or desires, punishing us for obtaining them, but rewarding us for merely desiring them.