Rental/Housing Crisis

[d3j3ct3dl0s3r05]

I hate where I live right now. I should be happy since I don't have any bills or much expenses but I'm not. I live in a rural area with virtually no job or study opportunities and nothing to really do tbh. Commuting anywhere is already difficult with a car so you can imagine how rough it is without one. I left the city because sharing a home with my female bio parent proved to be insufferable. Although she's more tame these days, it's difficult to get over all of the abuse she subjected me to in my childhood so I decided to seek independence but now I am regretting it tbh\:

I had a job here but it was awful. Awful coworkers etc. I hate this fucking town. I hate living rurally tbh I wish I could go back but unfortunately I was born in one of the most expensive cities in the world so unless my unemployed self miraculously obtains millions of dollars, I can't move there alone. I can't even move to a larger town, everywhere is expensive. My parents originally got a 2 bedroom unit close to transport and the city 20+ years ago for between $200-300 a week but now you can barely even find shared housing for less than that.

I have lived in a shared accommodation situation before and whilst having my own room was nice, it made my anxiety go crazy and I often found myself avoiding the rest of the house other than my bedroom and the bathroom (used to order Uber Eats, live off snacks or just eat out) embarrassingly. Ideally I would rather just have a place to myself but the current situation is so demotivating tbh. Our bumbling politicians don't care about the working class (what else is new) so the prices of everything just continue to go up. All I want is to move back to the region I grew up in but it went from being a more humble, working class area to a "trendy, diverse neighbourhood with eclectic, multicultural eateries and cafés" (or whatever world salad garbage real estate companies use). I can't even afford to live in that city at all anyways let alone where I grew up unfortunately

I wish I could just say screw it and run off to another state but I have a hard time adjusting to change. I feel comfortable nowhere except where I grew up. I think I would be better off dead tbh. With how things are going, you can no longer be picky with where you live unless you make way above average but unfortunately if I'm not picky enough, my mental health suffers greatly and I find myself unable to participate in life as usual.

I feel like such an inferior weak specimen sometimes and deserve to be dead tbh. Stupid mentally ill brain. I had a job that could have potentially gotten me out of here but instead of just being normal and sucking it up, the mistreatment made me regress mentally (breakdowns and crying episodes thanks to cptsd) and now I have rather severe agoraphobia and don't leave the house unless I'm travelling to my home city (rare since I often feel too depressed to even get out of bed) and even then I feel stressed until I get to a "safe zone". It's all so dumb, someone just shoot me atp

 

[ihatemyselfwanttodi]

Honestly, I don't know how normal people do it day in and day out. I've got no fucking clue.
I got my life to a pretty good spot. Got a well paying job, got a place that I liked, could afford my bills. But that's with a partner who also made good money.
Sounds all fine and dandy. But really, you're always just one bad day or one little slip up from fucking it all up. A layoff, or whatever it may be. All that security is just a facade. You're never safe. You're never secure. You can never just relax for a fucking second.

I wonder all the time to myself, am I the problem or is the system the problem? I guess maybe I'm too much of a baby.

Housing is way too goddamn expensive. Everything is way too goddamn expensive. I've always said I would take half the salary I have now if it just meant everything in the world could be cheaper. At least then I'm not so stressed all the time if I lost the well paying job, ya know? Plus, I don't think anyone should have to make six digits just to feel "comfortable" while saving for some sort of freedom at the end of your career.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I understand, I would love to live where I grew up too, but as it once was. It was once a humble leafy suburb but has turned into a trendy, bustling inner suburb with cafes, eateries around every corner and many of the beautiful old trees torn down. It is untouchable, but so to is everywhere else in my state, including the rural towns. I see young families moving in, couples in their early 30's with several kids in toe, tearing down trees and building massive two/ three story extensions and swimming pools on their big heritage homes, throwing parties most weekends and screaming at the top of their lungs so everyone knows how priviledged they are. I feel like Im not even worthy enough to take a fleeting glance at their homes. I know many are professionals but a lot also have handouts from their parent. All I got was a kick in the ass and "you should be grateful I exit to knock you down at every opportunity" from my parents. The division between the rich and poor is increasingly getting wider and even though I don't think the rich are better or more deserving people, they are better off and it makes me feel like the biggest looser.

 

[d3j3ct3dl0s3r05]

Honestly, I don't know how normal people do it day in and day out. I've got no fucking clue.
I got my life to a pretty good spot. Got a well paying job, got a place that I liked, could afford my bills. But that's with a partner who also made good money.
Sounds all fine and dandy. But really, you're always just one bad day or one little slip up from fucking it all up. A layoff, or whatever it may be. All that security is just a facade. You're never safe. You're never secure. You can never just relax for a fucking second.

I wonder all the time to myself, am I the problem or is the system the problem? I guess maybe I'm too much of a baby.

Housing is way too goddamn expensive. Everything is way too goddamn expensive. I've always said I would take half the salary I have now if it just meant everything in the world could be cheaper. At least then I'm not so stressed all the time if I lost the well paying job, ya know? Plus, I don't think anyone should have to make six digits just to feel "comfortable" while saving for some sort of freedom at the end of your career.

Yeah it can be rather disheartening because even if I manage to get my life together, will I just have to spend the rest of my days working as much as possible to spend over 2/3rds of my income on rent? With no foreseeable future where I am able to purchase a house? Unless I win the lottery of course but where I am, you need millions to live anywhere at this point. If you don't have that then have fun giving away a large percentage of your paycheck to your landlord every fortnight. I hate the system with every bone in my body tbh.

I understand, I would love to live where I grew up too, but as it once was. It was once a humble leafy suburb but has turned into a trendy, bustling inner suburb with cafes, eateries around every corner and many of the beautiful old trees torn down. It is untouchable, but so to is everywhere else in my state, including the rural towns. I see young families moving in, couples in their early 30's with several kids in toe, tearing down trees and building massive two/ three story extensions and swimming pools on their big heritage homes, throwing parties most weekends and screaming at the top of their lungs so everyone knows how priviledged they are. I feel like Im not even worthy enough to take a fleeting glance at their homes. I know many are professionals but a lot also have handouts from their parent. All I got was a kick in the ass and "you should be grateful I exit to knock you down at every opportunity" from my parents. The division between the rich and poor is increasingly getting wider and even though I don't think the rich are better or more deserving people, they are better off and it makes me feel like the biggest looser.

Yeah it really does suck. I wish I could live out the rest of my days in "my area" but that's not financially possible anymore unless I want to compete with young professionals and university students for budget shared housing (starting at 500 a week, not including bills)

 

[ihatemyselfwanttodi]

Yeah it can be rather disheartening because even if I manage to get my life together, will I just have to spend the rest of my days working as much as possible to spend over 2/3rds of my income on rent? With no foreseeable future where I am able to purchase a house? Unless I win the lottery of course but where I am, you need millions to live anywhere at this point. If you don't have that then have fun giving away a large percentage of your paycheck to your landlord every fortnight. I hate the system with every bone in my body tbh.

Yeah it really does suck. I wish I could live out the rest of my days in "my area" but that's not financially possible anymore unless I want to compete with young professionals and university students for budget shared housing (starting at 500 a week, not including bills)

Even when I was a kid, I didn't have a competitive bone in my body. People always loved being so competitive in sports or whatever and I just couldn't care less. Really feels like you have to be out there willing to kill for your spot in this world at this point. And really it's a system I'd rather not be a part of.