Mmh, must say at my lowest I didn't really care about anything anymore. Had originally planned to do some things before ctb. The usual, hooking up, skydiving, wingsuiting, surfing, travel and so forth. But when it got serious all I wanted was ctb. I simply had no desires anymore, nor the energy for them. At best maybe get drunk the night before, music and movies, ruminate a little on my life and that's that.
Not sure what comes after death, but one likely possibility is being reborn into the same life over and over. Death merely being some type of amnesia. Thus, I thought I'd force myself to do certain things, just in case voyager has to relive these experiences infinite times. So, his life should end in good. Also wanted to see if I was even capable of feeling any more emotions tbh.
I'd recommend doing the same if you can still find something you want to do and can muster the energy.
