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gr1lledcheese

gr1lledcheese

Student
Dec 18, 2021
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I was doing okay, taking the Meclizine as recommended, fasting, and watching TV. I'm normally a morning person so staying up til midnight isn't easy. I took a nap in the afternoon but didn't get much sleep. Around 9:30-10 I started getting anxious and having second thoughts. Looking back I see no reason I couldn't have taken the Valium then. I only had Valium because one of my doctors prescribed it for an upcoming procedure (a procedure I now have to go through!🙄).
It's funny, the thoughts that spurred me to cancel my plan and go home were simply to see and pet my roommate's dogs again. Of course when I got home I only saw them briefly and didn't get to pet them much. It was very disappointing.
I sent my resume out for three different jobs today, but if nothing changes I'll be looking to ctb again soon. Unfortunately I'll probably end up doing it here. I don't like doing that, but I can't afford to stay at a hotel again. On that note I must remember to buy a shower curtain liner, and maybe a package of adult diapers. 🥴
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

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Mar 23, 2018
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I hope you hear back from the places you sent your resumes to. It would be nice for someone to get a win here.
I hope you don't have to go but I do understand.:hug::hug::hug:
 
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GentleJerk

GentleJerk

Carrot juice pimp.
Dec 14, 2021
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@gr1lledcheese good to see you again! There's absolutely nothing wrong with having second thoughts, it's certainly not an easy task and it's important be sure that the timing is right, and feel confident about any decision you make. I hope everything goes well for you, job or not.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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