Used to be that way until I ran out of credit and savings. Kept me from wanting to CTB too much. The plan was to get better enough to work again and repay the loans, or to CTB.
I miss traveling and having nice things. I want a car again.
(Is this strictly a suicide discussion thread? Would it fit in the off-topic section?)
I go back and forth between living like a monk and blowing money on creature comforts, particularly good food and booze. If I gave those up, I think I would deteriorate quickly as I have before. I know what happens afterwards with anhedonia, and it's not pleasant. I'm hesitating to push down that domino in the self-destructiveness chain.
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StateOfMind, TooConscious, Huntfish34 and 1 other person
Same for me pretty much..... Booze, cigs, and various other substance to numb myself in this world we all live in. And.. just other random Shitt I dont Need, but Want.. So I buy them. Can be a fairly vicious cycle if I keep this up =/
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