SadGirl

SadGirl

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Mar 24, 2019
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I told my mom today about my ctb will. She asked me not to do this, because my father has an incurable disease and is slowly dying, and she asked me not to leave her alone, and she is the reason I am here, I would never abandon my mother in this shitty world full of suffering and pain. But when she leaves, I will definitely go too.
 
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Rustysoupcan

Rustysoupcan

I'm sensitive
May 2, 2020
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The only reason I'm here is for my partner. If we break I'll probably end up ctb. Not in a manipulative way like "you better not leave me", because he is free to go whenever he pleases. Theres just nothing else in life that's good enough to keep going.
 
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Bagger

Bagger

Stressful
Jun 18, 2019
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More or less same reason here, my mom knows about my suicidality, knows all about my method and means, but my father is dead already. I promised not ctb before her death. She don't want to be alone, and i'm her only son. So i can relate. Strange time for me. For us. I hope there will be no major breakdowns ahead, because i'm afraid that i would not keep my promise. It would fucking suck..
 
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SadGirl

SadGirl

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Mar 24, 2019
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The only reason I'm here is for my partner. If we break I'll probably end up ctb. Not in a manipulative way like "you better not leave me", because he is free to go whenever he pleases. Theres just nothing else in life that's good enough to keep going.
It's been 4 months since I ended my relationship, I was engaged. I still love her, but she doesn't want to go back. And that is one of the reasons that I want ctb. I can't get over it
 
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Mentalmick

Mentalmick

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Nov 30, 2020
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It shows incredible strength what you're doing.
 
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WhiteDespair

WhiteDespair

The Temporary Problem is Life
Oct 24, 2019
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At this point I'm beginning to think I'm too stubborn and arrogant to CtB. I don't have any real reasons for sticking around aside from that.
 
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