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123monday123
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- Nov 21, 2018
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Please, tell me your reasons for and against suicide :)
Survival instincts is one of the toughest things to surpass.For - Life's a gift, and I want to return it. Life simply is not something I look forward to and the stress and anxieties that I experience everyday I don't want to feel anymore. Currently, the only thing I look forward to during the day is cutting myself.
Against - my fucking survival instinct.
Survival instincts is one of the toughest things to surpass.
Working a pointless job all for pointless paper that I can barely live off of as is. It's take up too much time and energy just to keep up the facade. We're the only species that has to pay for an existence that none of us asked for.Please, tell me your reasons for and against suicide :)
Existence is suffering pain, pleasure, and suffering I don't know about being happy I don't mind being happy but I am also used to being miserable for everyone's happiness we all have suffer but some of us can't CTB without another person otherwise I'll complain about it here or on suicideproject.orgWorking a pointless job all for pointless paper that I can barely live off of as is. It's take up too much time and energy just to keep up the facade. We're the only species that has to pay for an existence that none of us asked for.
I find the way you described the reality of the world through experience of others such as myself that when I see the world through my eyes and see the beauty and ugly in this world and realized that if I was to truly CTB and understand what happens in this world being recycled into this earth and back to the universe or to God(s) that wouldn't bother me because I noticed that living in the emotional, personal, psychological, rational, and irrational state of mind due to experiences of my own pain, pleasure, and suffering internal and external.Having psychology that impedes what the current world demands and being put into isolated and violent environments or situations because of it, such as homelessness, or the threat of such displacement and alienation. Each time there is that biological drive to live, the resurgence towards life, it is a little bit less than the last time.
For me, in the 'good' stretches every so many years someone interesting is met and we become friends, until there is a casting away. There is an air of inadequacy and there is the label of socially inept, regardless what you are capable of, how intelligent you are, what you have accomplished. Along the way, because of these things, naivety is stripped and you become hardened against trusting and against optimism. That is probably the healthier of acquired knowledge imo. I've learned a lot about people within the current social state of the world and at some point I realized it's horribly and possibly irreparably damaged. There was nothing left to return to anyways.
I find emptiness worse than loneliness when people ask do you feel lonely the answer always the same no I don't "feel lonely" I understand the subjective feeling of loniness but it doesn't seem to bother me probably because I am introverted only extroverted when I get used to you or a few, many, or others around me.For - Life should only be lived if you are enjoying it. I haven't been deeply happy in so long I can't remember. I want the peach that comes with death.
Against - the damage it causes to all those around us. I don't want to cause pain but I don't want to continue feeling so empty inside.
I agree completely about the happiness thing. Even when I was happy there were still aspects of loneliness and sadness. I think about the damage and it'll be mostly to my mother. Everyone else will move on with their lives and be able to be happy. It doesn't always seem like it but they do. Some take longer than others thoughFor - Life should only be lived if you are enjoying it. I haven't been deeply happy in so long I can't remember. I want the peach that comes with death.
Against - the damage it causes to all those around us. I don't want to cause pain but I don't want to continue feeling so empty inside.
This sounds like the description of my life. Most days anyway.The worst type of life is that when you just suffer without being able to enjoy anything.
I think they'd rather have you bc you're priceless. Not trying to guilt you but no amount of money could replace you especially not for themFor: to help my kids in their mid twenties financially (life insurance)
Against: hurting them emotionally