dogteeth
New Member
- Jun 10, 2024
- 3
hey all
Im desperate at this point to ctb, ive had multiple failed overdose attempts with prescription medication and attempts at hanging and all have been very painful and honestly just embarrassing. Because of living in new zealand guns are definitely not an option, and it is almost impossible for me to find ANYWHERE that would sell me SN or anything like that. My preferred method would be fent/opiates but those are also extremely uncommon in new zealand, ive tried looking for plugs but cant find anyone that sells anything more than just grass deep web was very complicated for me, im not too smart haha and im not sure how to use it plus am kinda scared to after hearing a few horror stories involving it haha. I have considered jumping off a building or in front of a train but im honestly not sure if ill be able to physically force my body to be able to jump. i dont even have a car or a garage so cant use co2 method. i know 100% i want to ctb i just really dont want to risk waking up in hospital again i dont know what to do. any help appreciated i am desperate :(
Im desperate at this point to ctb, ive had multiple failed overdose attempts with prescription medication and attempts at hanging and all have been very painful and honestly just embarrassing. Because of living in new zealand guns are definitely not an option, and it is almost impossible for me to find ANYWHERE that would sell me SN or anything like that. My preferred method would be fent/opiates but those are also extremely uncommon in new zealand, ive tried looking for plugs but cant find anyone that sells anything more than just grass deep web was very complicated for me, im not too smart haha and im not sure how to use it plus am kinda scared to after hearing a few horror stories involving it haha. I have considered jumping off a building or in front of a train but im honestly not sure if ill be able to physically force my body to be able to jump. i dont even have a car or a garage so cant use co2 method. i know 100% i want to ctb i just really dont want to risk waking up in hospital again i dont know what to do. any help appreciated i am desperate :(