Lone_Traveler90
Member
- Jan 7, 2023
- 70
It's been 30+h after my failed attempt after which I decided to wait for my SN to arrive.
I am sitting here, locked in my apartment completely detached from my body.
I am analyzing my whole life and everything that went wrong to bring me to this point in life. Most of you are here because of something outside your control.
I realized I am here because of me. Everything bad that happened to me in my life, every amazing oportunity I lost is because of me. I messed every single thing. Life gave me all those oportunities and I sabotaged every single one of them one after another.
I am looking for a peaceful way out but I do not deserve it. I deserve the pain. Before I leave this world I have to understand and feel the pain and terror.
Many people never get any good chances in life and many get them but do not deserve them.
I hate myself. I just had to get it out, sorry.
I am sitting here, locked in my apartment completely detached from my body.
I am analyzing my whole life and everything that went wrong to bring me to this point in life. Most of you are here because of something outside your control.
I realized I am here because of me. Everything bad that happened to me in my life, every amazing oportunity I lost is because of me. I messed every single thing. Life gave me all those oportunities and I sabotaged every single one of them one after another.
I am looking for a peaceful way out but I do not deserve it. I deserve the pain. Before I leave this world I have to understand and feel the pain and terror.
Many people never get any good chances in life and many get them but do not deserve them.
I hate myself. I just had to get it out, sorry.