Venting Ready to get the hell out of here

[divinemistress36]

I know I post to much but it's so frustrating when your soul is ready to go but society won't let you and has taken away all somewhat peaceful methods .Doesn't matter how much you are suffering you must live with it like it's a badge of honor and try and be a guinea pig and try a bunch of treatments that don't work..

 

[iloverachel]

I can totally relate. I wish there was a painless, easily accessible method to get the hell out of here. Please continue to post and vent! We are always listening

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just so horrible and cruel how there is no acceptance towards suicide with humans expected to suffer no matter what, I understand feeling trapped in this existence, I just wish there's a straightforward way to just die in peace. But anyway best wishes.

 

[divinemistress36]

I love how right after I post this the song "heaven knows" by the Pretty Reckless comes on.

 

[INTJme]

What "treatment" are they putting you on this time?

 

[divinemistress36]

What "treatment" are they putting you on this time?

They tried to suggest electroshock therapy again I'm like hell no

 

[INTJme]

They tried to suggest electroshock therapy again I'm like hell no

Who are "they"?
Feel free to ignore the question if it sounds too personal.

 

[strangelife]

I understand you perfectly well, incurable physical diseases bring so much suffering that a person should be given the right to choose in these cases for sure. And in the case of mental illnesses that cannot be corrected, too. To be constantly in a state of torture is not humane towards sick people. But healthy people simply do not understand this, they believe that patients should endure until they die their death - this is not humane

 

[divinemistress36]

Who are "they"?
Feel free to ignore the question if it sounds too personal.

Fancy University doctor

 

[INTJme]

Fancy University doctor

Oh, I love to mess with them!
If I were in your place, I would've asked them if they've already exhausted their creativity and if they're going to suggest going out in the sun more.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

You seem like a fighter. I was too. But I've reached a place where it's truly over. Have you a means of exiting?

 

[INTJme]

You seem like a fighter. I was too. But I've reached a place where it's truly over. Have you a means of exiting?

She's not the person in the profile picture... just so you know.

 

[divinemistress36]

You seem like a fighter. I was too. But I've reached a place where it's truly over. Have you a means of exiting?

Not yet. I am a fighter I've tried everything even umbilical stem cells haha. Do you have a means of exiting?

She's not the person in the profile picture... just so you know.

Hey I could have been a viking shield maiden in my past life

Oh, I love to mess with them!
If I were in your place, I would've asked them if they've already exhausted their creativity and if they're going to suggest going out in the sun more.

They are a joke they are just book smart. My massage therapist knows more about the brain then them

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

She's not the person in the profile picture... just so you know.

Yes I do know that, I just sensed tenacity in some of her comments

Not yet. I am a fighter I've tried everything even umbilical stem cells haha. Do you have a means of exiting?

Hey I could have been a viking shield maiden in my past life

They are a joke they are just book smart. My massage therapist knows more about the brain then them

Yes have the means. It's almost time. I didn't want to do this. But there's nothing left now. I fought too. Some things in this world get to the point where they can't be helped unfortunately, I'm there. I don't know why I'm still even bothering forums, just wanted to talk any other people who are crossing over at this time also.

 

[Malaria]

I'm really sorry you're going through all this. I always love reading your posts. It's truly a shame when bad things happen to people who don't deserve it :(

 

[divinemistress36]

I'm really sorry you're going through all this. I always love reading your posts. It's truly a shame when bad things happen to people who don't deserve it :(

Thank you kind soul

 

[tsumihoroboshi]

They tried to suggest electroshock therapy again I'm like hell no

i've often been considering ECT for so long now. just rewire my brain and do something to change who "me" is. maybe i'd change into a better "me". deeply think about trepenation too but god knows i can't do that on my own lmao. have you ever had personal experience with it? you don't have to answer that at all, i know one of my aunts went through it wayyyyy back in the day.

i'm sorry you're struggling so much, we all know how it feels to suffer every agonising second waiting until just something easier lands on your door. one day we'll finally be free from this mortal coil. the pain has to end eventually, right?

 

[justcallmeJ]

Im sorry for the pain you are having, i hope you find a way to get the peace you need. I wish you the best <3

 

[divinemistress36]

i've often been considering ECT for so long now. just rewire my brain and do something to change who "me" is. maybe i'd change into a better "me". deeply think about trepenation too but god knows i can't do that on my own lmao. have you ever had personal experience with it? you don't have to answer that at all, i know one of my aunts went through it wayyyyy back in the day.

i'm sorry you're struggling so much, we all know how it feels to suffer every agonising second waiting until just something easier lands on your door. one day we'll finally be free from this mortal coil. the pain has to end eventually, right?

Yes, I did it about 3 years ago it did work temporarily the best but it came at a big cost .I've lost a lot of memories, Events, people I've met , memories of pets. Wasn't worth the temporary relief to me. Some people it is and not everyone gets bad memory loss it does help a lot of people. Just doctors don't disclose that the memory loss could be permanent for some people

i've often been considering ECT for so long now. just rewire my brain and do something to change who "me" is. maybe i'd change into a better "me". deeply think about trepenation too but god knows i can't do that on my own lmao. have you ever had personal experience with it? you don't have to answer that at all, i know one of my aunts went through it wayyyyy back in the day.

i'm sorry you're struggling so much, we all know how it feels to suffer every agonising second waiting until just something easier lands on your door. one day we'll finally be free from this mortal coil. the pain has to end eventually, right?

I would try ketamine Infusions first if you have the money