Ready to ctb

[Beachygirl]

I'm ready to ctb at beachy head but my si keep getting the way how can I stop this from happening?

 

[FuneralCry]

It is difficult to overcome the SI as we are all programmed to survive after all. I believe that in my case I will get desperate and I will get to a point where I cannot take it anymore and the mental state that I am in will allow myself to overcome the SI. If ctb was easier, I would already be gone. I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Manaaja]

It is really hard to overcome it. I have tried to ctb over 50 times, still SI wins every time.

I'd suggest getting really drunk. I get really nauseous before I can get drunk so it doesn't really help me, but lots of other people have said that it helps them. Music too can be really helpful. And thinking positive thoughts. Think what you can gain by ctbing. Some say closing their eyes or doing it in dark can help.

 

[Eddypaddy]

It is really hard to overcome it. I have tried to ctb over 50 times, still SI wins every time.

I'd suggest getting really drunk. I get really nauseous before I can get drunk so it doesn't really help me, but lots of other people have said that it helps them. Music too can be really helpful. And thinking positive thoughts. Think what you can gain by ctbing. Some say closing their eyes or doing it in dark can help.

50 times? How?
Im going to try once and succeed.

 

[Manaaja]

50 times? How?
Im going to try once and succeed.

Over 50 times. First I used wrong ropes, then I used wrong hanging points, then I used wrong belts, then I used wrong mindsets, then I used wrong times, then I used wrong positions, then I used wrong rooms, then I drank too much alcohol and got nauseous, then I just couldn't pass out, then I changed my mind and decided to do it some other day, then SI came and hit my face, etc. etc. etc.

I think it might be the combination of my perfectionism and asperger. No matter how many times I put on the rope, no matter how much I try to pass out, there's always something that prevents me from fainting.

The less tries, the better. I wish you luck.