reading goodbye threads

[tiredcat]

goodbye threads are so heartbreaking. i just read avaruus' one. it's so unfair that our minds do this to us. i know he is at peace now, and so are the many others who have said goodbye and went through with it on this forum. it just hurts knowing the amount people have to suffer to be so set on their decision the way he was along with others.

nonetheless tho, i know everyone who ctb are finally resting and in eternal peace.

much love to all here. <3

 

[justcallmeJ]

The only thing I feel from reading these are jealousy

 

[I Can't Say]

goodbye threads are so heartbreaking. i just read avaruus' one.

I keep looking at this thread hoping someone else will say what I'm thinking so I won't have to. His story has been wrenching all along. "At least he's at rest" used to seem like a platitude, but I really felt it this time.

On the other hand, not reading his thread would seem... disrespectful? And the idea of getting inured to such things isn't really comforting, either.

Peace, everyone.

 

[Mankeli]

goodbye threads are so heartbreaking. i just read avaruus' one. it's so unfair that our minds do this to us. i know he is at peace now, and so are the many others who have said goodbye and went through with it on this forum. it just hurts knowing the amount people have to suffer to be so set on their decision the way he was along with others.

nonetheless tho, i know everyone who ctb are finally resting and in eternal peace.

much love to all here. <3

Hi avaruus's best friend here he was one of the most caring persons i have ever known and he always made everyone laugh with his joy and jokes , i made tgis account to get closure to what happened to him and im kinda at ease know , please everyone here seek help and i hope you find it i dont want avaruus's fate on anyone else

 

[FuneralCry]

I envy those people so much as now they are unable to suffer in this existence, to me it only sounds ideal to eternally not exist where all is forgotten about. The only fortunate ones are those who are permanently unaware of this existence as nothing can concern them anymore. And I also admire them for managing to ctb in this society where it's cruelly made so difficult.

 

[L0nely]

To me it's always hard to read those threads. To know how much pain and suffering someone has to go through to pull the trigger. It makes it all so much more real and it's scary at times.

 

[I Can't Say]

Hi avaruus's best friend here

You're banned now and can't reply, but maybe you're still reading. I'd like to say one thing, and it took a while to crystallize in my head.

I didn't know your friend, aside from the little bit of his life he chose to reveal here. He seemed like a great guy. I'm so sorry for your loss.

But the one thing that is tragically clear to me is that he felt he couldn't reach out to those around him. I hope it doesn't sound like I'm criticizing you for the lack of communication. I'm not. I don't know all the reasons he couldn't. One might easily say that society is to blame, but that just raises more questions I can't answer. I just hate it that we can't talk to each other about what's important, I hate it so desperately. I wish you had gotten a chance to talk to your friend. Whether or not it would have changed anything, you should have had that chance.

please everyone here seek help

I just wish it was that easy.

 

[Meditation guide]

To me it's always hard to read those threads. To know how much pain and suffering someone has to go through to pull the trigger. It makes it all so much more real and it's scary at times.

It's really scary and sad. I cry a little whenever I read a goodbye thread. People are so brave to do it, more brave than I probably would ever be. To think how awful things can be for people and that they have to do it this way, no family around, taking a risk, it's just too much.

 

[tiger b]

I can't help but find it sad. Of course I respect the decision of the person above all else, so I never really want to say too much.

 

[AnonAdult]

I want to help people realize that suicide shouldn't be an option but i realize myself that i've attempted - albeit years and years ago - i self harm (not daily but i do), so i'd be a hypocrite if i said i didn't feel like CTBing ever. but i hope people do help one another to choose life.

 

[tiger b]

I want to help people realize that suicide shouldn't be an option but i realize myself that i've attempted - albeit years and years ago - i self harm (not daily but i do), so i'd be a hypocrite if i said i didn't feel like CTBing ever. but i hope people do help one another to choose life.

'Shouldn't'?

People have a right to choose anything concerning their own life.

There are many pro-life agencies outside this forum. What you say may sound admirable but it is misplaced on certain threads here.

Encouraging those to seek death outright is, of course, deplorable.

I mean no disrespect or callousness at all in this post towards anyone.

 

[AnonAdult]

'Shouldn't'?

People have a right to choose anything concerning their own life.

There are many pro-life agencies outside this forum. What you say may sound admirable but it is misplaced on certain threads here.

Encouraging those to seek death outright is, of course, deplorable.

i realize that people can do anything, but it's hard to see goodbye posts and feel like i could have done something or at least reached out someway, that's what i meant by that posting.

 

[tiger b]

i realize that people can do anything, but it's hard to see goodbye posts and feel like i could have done something or at least reached out someway, that's what i meant by that posting.

I get you, but I think in the vast majority of cases there has been a lot of reaching out well before that point of thee-seconds-to-midnight by various agencies. Just my opinion.

 

[AnonAdult]

I get you, but I think in the vast majority of cases there has been a lot of reaching out well before that point of thee-seconds-to-midnight by various agencies. Just my opinion.

If suicide didn't have such a godawful stigma, maybe this site wouldn't exist.

 

[tiger b]

Yeah I agree, I'm not sure I entirely see the point you are making with that here though, but no odds.

 

[higherthanthesun]

goodbye threads are so heartbreaking. i just read avaruus' one. it's so unfair that our minds do this to us. i know he is at peace now, and so are the many others who have said goodbye and went through with it on this forum. it just hurts knowing the amount people have to suffer to be so set on their decision the way he was along with others.

nonetheless tho, i know everyone who ctb are finally resting and in eternal peace.

much love to all here. <3

I read the entirety of Avaruus' thread last night. It really touched my heart, seeing his mum comment honestly broke me.

I find an odd joy to reading them though, having the author know that someone took the time to read their final goodbye with compassion, someone other than family. I hope people will give me the same courtesy when I eventually write one.

I will probably go through the same thing one day when I finally build up the courage, when I can finally get away from everyone.

I still see beauty in life through enjoy nature though, so it may be awhile.

The joy I get from watching sunsets, rainy days, watching the tides roll in, I want to have some more time seeing that. That's just me though. <3

 

[ceriseange♡]

Reading those threads breaks my heart. People are allowed to make their own decisions and of course I understand why (I mean, I'm also here) but seeing someone stop replying is so upsetting. Knowing that theres someone behind the pfp suffering the way I am is just fucking devastating, I really wish there was anything that could be done, but also I hope they're all at peace. ;;

 

[Meditation guide]

i realize that people can do anything, but it's hard to see goodbye posts and feel like i could have done something or at least reached out someway, that's what i meant by that posting.

Would you encourage them to talk to someone or get therapy?

 

[Raindancer]

I always cry reading the goodbye posts, especially the people who post all the way until. But that is what I would want to do and will if possible. I would like to feel like I wasn't so alone.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes, it is sad. It's heartbreaking for every person that their life was so cruel that it brought them to that stage. I always read them with mixed emotions really. I'm sad, I'm frightened for them- I wonder how scared they must be. I'm worried that they may fail and end up in a worse position. As for the decision itself though. I think that has to be up to them. We can't ever really know all the things that have happened in a person's life to get them to that point. It's not to say they shouldn't be shown concern and offered help along the way. Still- by that stage- when they have clearly made the decision for themselves, it seems only right to respect it. I guess by then, I just hope it's peaceful for them and I hope they get the peace they deserve. Or of course- if they do change their mind, I hope they receive the support they deserve and they make peace with that choice.

 

[tiredcat]

I can't help but find it sad. Of course I respect the decision of the person above all else, so I never really want to say too much.

you are not obligated to say anything, im sure the very fact you acknowledged it and have some sort of feeling towards it is enough, and i'm sure the person would be thankful you're taking the time to even do that <3

I read the entirety of Avaruus' thread last night. It really touched my heart, seeing his mum comment honestly broke me.

I find an odd joy to reading them though, having the author know that someone took the time to read their final goodbye with compassion, someone other than family. I hope people will give me the same courtesy when I eventually write one.

I will probably go through the same thing one day when I finally build up the courage, when I can finally get away from everyone.

I still see beauty in life through enjoy nature though, so it may be awhile.

The joy I get from watching sunsets, rainy days, watching the tides roll in, I want to have some more time seeing that. That's just me though. <3

though everyone here would respect you're decision if you ever decided to do so, i am glad you have some reasons to continue staying, even if everything else around you or what may be going through your head may feel like too much to handle. please remind yourself, especially in places like these that if you truly want to try and live, keep doing so. this place is for people who respect the decision to ctb, not to encourage it.

much love <3

Reading those threads breaks my heart. People are allowed to make their own decisions and of course I understand why (I mean, I'm also here) but seeing someone stop replying is so upsetting. Knowing that theres someone behind the pfp suffering the way I am is just fucking devastating, I really wish there was anything that could be done, but also I hope they're all at peace. ;;

i understand completely, everyone here struggles with different things, but in the end we all just want peace. death shouldnt be as scary as everyone on this planet (seemingly) puts it out to be.

it's okay to feel empathy for these people, even if we know they're doing something that they chose to do <3

Yes, it is sad. It's heartbreaking for every person that their life was so cruel that it brought them to that stage. I always read them with mixed emotions really. I'm sad, I'm frightened for them- I wonder how scared they must be. I'm worried that they may fail and end up in a worse position. As for the decision itself though. I think that has to be up to them. We can't ever really know all the things that have happened in a person's life to get them to that point. It's not to say they shouldn't be shown concern and offered help along the way. Still- by that stage- when they have clearly made the decision for themselves, it seems only right to respect it. I guess by then, I just hope it's peaceful for them and I hope they get the peace they deserve. Or of course- if they do change their mind, I hope they receive the support they deserve and they make peace with that choice.

i know where you're coming from, we never really know people's situations and a failed attempt can make matters so much worse for people. all we can do is hope in situations like these. hope they are resting well and that they didnt have to go through the pain of maybe regretting it last minute before they can really do anything to stop it because a lot don't have the luxury of people coming to check on them.

i always hope in their last moments they are content with the decision that made at the very least <3

 

[Meditation guide]

I want to help people realize that suicide shouldn't be an option but i realize myself that i've attempted - albeit years and years ago - i self harm (not daily but i do), so i'd be a hypocrite if i said i didn't feel like CTBing ever. but i hope people do help one another to choose life.

May I ask why you are on a site like this if you feel suicide shouldn't be an option?

 

[gbi2]

'Shouldn't'?

People have a right to choose anything concerning their own life.

I don;t get involved in discussions like this usually but this is the thing.

Doctors and parents can sometimes make a decision to end a child's life prematurely because of concerns they have that the child cannot live to the standard we are expected and encouraged to live at, yet later on, that child cannot choose to end it's life for the same reason.

That's why I see the world around me as crazy.

 

[ohyouknow]

May I ask why you are on a site like this if you feel suicide shouldn't be an option?

Perhaps they meant to say that suicide shouldn't be an option we are driven to? Like, life shouldn't be so bad that people are driven to the point of seeing suicide as a good option? Just trying to help out. Most everyone here is in pain.