re-ordered SN / SN & quetiapine or other AE (online pharmacies)

[lkjhgfdsa1]

the other week, I bought SN because I was so upset at my failed CTB attempts
but after a couple of days, I impulsively cancelled my order because I suddenly got super scared that my family would find out

but... after suffering every day since then, I changed my mind agan and just re-ordered my SN.
I would like to have it anyways, even if it is just a back-up.

but I am also thinking about the AE I need.
I am scared to go to my doctor and I'd rather not go see him due to some personal reason, but I have some medicine on recipe that I can get more easily without needing to see my doctor
which is zolpidem/ambien and quetiapine.

i read in the SN bible that quetiapine can also be used with SN
does anyone know how much quetiapine you would need?

still, I don't think it's super ideal...
is there any way to get the right medicine for SN without having to see the doctor?

I saw some people talk about online pharmacies.
If anyone can DM me, I would appreciate it sm!!


edit: i'm aware suffer from indecisiveness, but i have so my entire life and its one of the reasons why ruined my life/ i want to ctb in the first place
i'm on this site and mentally ill but so are you so idc

 

[totheendofinfinity]

Dark net market maybe?

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

^^

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

Here's a guide I had in my bookmarks. You can get a lot of prescription medications (including meto and other AEs) from online pharmacies without a prescription but I can't help with sourcing them. I think some places can't ship to certain countries like some European countries.

 

[Unfitted]

I got the prescription of AE from online doctors. There are plenty out there if you google it. I just needed to complete a questionnaire. Then I got the prescription sent to the nearest pharmacy in a few hours. No one ask me any question.

 

[ferrie]

At least if you're in the US it's extremely easy to get meto from online providers. Quetiapine can be used, but it won't be as effective as meto or a similar AE

 

[DefinitelyReady]

I was going to use quetiapine, but maybe I'll look for meto since that user said it's available in the us. Look up "avolition". I have it too.