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Cyagangy

Cyagangy

Self Immolation fr fr
Apr 27, 2024
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Cya here, for the past week I have been feeling good. Random spikes of hope and excitement. Feeling content and peaceful, never got help never got meds never got diagnosed or anything. I somehow went from feeling suicidal and like a prophet to being a regular guy. If I'm going to be honest, I kinda missed being stressed and terrified. I liked the edge, I dislike being bored and happy especially if I have nothing in truly excited about. Maybe it's a gift from God or my mind just wanted to give me some serotonin. It just feels odd to feel "normal". Have you guys ever had you mental stuff fixed suddenly?
 
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Aug 23, 2025
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are you sure nothing in your life changed? Its possible that this isnt random at all, and you just havent figured out the reasons yet. But yes I have had this experience, although a bit different. It is very common to miss being miserable. My advice is try not to think about it too much and just enjoy the good times while they last, and be prepared for when they end.
 
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amerie

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Oct 6, 2024
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Not everything needs to be diagnosed as a condition or a disorder, I hate how people make mental illness (especially for women) seem irrational when it could likely just be your body rejecting years of social abuse and neglect. Perhaps you escaped and finally got better because you prioritized your health and left all those toxic ass people and environments.

I only developed depression as a teenager because of people rejecting and excluding me constantly, my disorder is not irrational. I live in a world that wasn't made for me so of course im going to be depressed and coping.
are you sure nothing in your life changed? Its possible that this isnt random at all, and you just havent figured out the reasons yet. But yes I have had this experience, although a bit different. It is very common to miss being miserable. My advice is try not to think about it too much and just enjoy the good times while they last, and be prepared for when they end.
Don't let nostalgia fool you!! The peace from mental stability is always better than the emptiness and pain of depression and being suicidal.

Get hobbies and find a greater purpose. Find new friends and do risky shit. Is there a dream you have? Do it bro. Fuck being realistic. Live life to the fullest.
 
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Cyagangy

Cyagangy

Self Immolation fr fr
Apr 27, 2024
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are you sure nothing in your life changed? Its possible that this isnt random at all, and you just havent figured out the reasons yet. But yes I have had this experience, although a bit different. It is very common to miss being miserable. My advice is try not to think about it too much and just enjoy the good times while they last, and be prepared for when they end.
Okay then, will definitely do!
Not everything needs to be diagnosed as a condition or a disorder, I hate how people make mental illness (especially for women) seem irrational when it could likely just be your body rejecting years of social abuse and neglect. Perhaps you escaped and finally got better because you prioritized your health and left all those toxic ass people and environments.

I only developed depression as a teenager because of people rejecting and excluding me constantly, my disorder is not irrational. I live in a world that wasn't made for me so of course im going to be depressed and coping.

Don't let nostalgia fool you!! The peace from mental stability is always better than the emptiness and pain of depression and being suicidal.

Get hobbies and find a greater purpose. Find new friends and do risky shit. Is there a dream you have? Do it bro. Fuck being realistic. Live life to the fullest.
That might just be the case, I don't know exactly what I wanna do hobby wise cuz I just started community but I will find some way to enjoy this.
 
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Not everything needs to be diagnosed as a condition or a disorder, I hate how people make mental illness (especially for women) seem irrational when it could likely just be your body rejecting years of social abuse and neglect. Perhaps you escaped and finally got better because you prioritized your health and left all those toxic ass people and environments.

I only developed depression as a teenager because of people rejecting and excluding me constantly, my disorder is not irrational. I live in a world that wasn't made for me so of course im going to be depressed and coping.
I do mostly agree with this cause there are certainly some people out there who feign mental illness but are just putting on an act. But on the other hand if someone is having very dangerous thoughts of grandeur or very dangerous reactions to their hallucinations that person might reject all those who wsnt to have them go to therapy and probably start medication even tho that is probably what eould be best for them.

I agree that different people deal with the struggle of abuse and the recovery from abuse in different ways. I am very surr that there is something called 'Shit Life Syndrome' and a person may be diagnosed as 'depressed' when in reality the person's life sucks cause theur parents and colleagues have ostracized them for baseless, selfish, or psychopathic reasons. And then suddenly when this person leaves those toxic fools and the person gets a couple weeks or years of recovery away from those toxic fools or even they experience unconditional acceptance from other people of peaceful will as them and their 'dEppReSsIon' diagnosis just disappears or becomes less harsh at least... cause they fucking dont got to deal with those knuckle dragging fascists anymore . Their sadness may just be a normal reaction to how they see the unreparated injustices of thise world and our history and the people of their community or family. Their life is no longer shit now , so their 'Shit Life Syndrome' is cured and they eventually get cured.
Don't let nostalgia fool you!! The peace from mental stability is always better than the emptiness and pain of depression and being suicidal.

Get hobbies and find a greater purpose. Find new friends and do risky shit. Is there a dream you have? Do it bro. Fuck being realistic. Live life to the fullest.
well you have to be realistic about a few things here and there. like if a 6'10 250 pound person starts bullying you you gotta just accept thatthey have the W here and you cant really do anything to stop them for now . YOull probably have to wait then just go on your way and maybe report the person . Or record the person. .

But for most things in life there is probably no to little harm with looking at them in an optimistic and carefree light.

Glad that youre getting better now 🫂
 
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amerie

amerie

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Oct 6, 2024
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I do mostly agree with this cause there are certainly some people out there who feign mental illness but are just putting on an act. But on the other hand if someone is having very dangerous thoughts of grandeur or very dangerous reactions to their hallucinations that person might reject all those who wsnt to have them go to therapy and probably start medication even tho that is probably what eould be best for them.
I'm aware of that, if it's really bad then obviously you should get help. But I don't support teenagers/people in their early 20s who come from troubled homes being slapped with a label or having a permanent condition when they could just be having a logical reaction to consistent abuse and rejection. Obviously I'm going to be depressed if I'm constantly medically gaslighted and treated like shit for things I can't control like my race or neurodivergence or gender, when the real cure should be getting tf out and society making an effort to change.

But yes I agree if you're hallucinating stuff and feeling depressed when you come from an otherwise happy family and are harming others then a diagnosis could be really helpful, but I find that a lot of the medical system can be corrupt and make people seem hysterical for having emotions.

Also yes obviously you should be realistic for most stuff but if someone wants to be a singer or play a sport for a living just fucking do it, the economy sucks either way even for minimum wage jobs so might as well struggle while doing something you like rather than getting rejected from corporate. Lack of passion leads to apathy about the world.
 
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
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Hey Cya! :) I'm glad to hear that you're feeling a bit better now! hehe~

That's happened to me many times as well~ It tends to be more frequent when I just get confused about all the bad stuff and can't concentrate on anything or when I get heavily distracted by something from everything else~
 
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FoxSauce

Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
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Im glad your feeling better how you dont go down into depression cuz that may happen but if not go on be happy. You deserve that!

Ive been happy but moslty drug induced but moslty I can be just meh
 
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Cyagangy

Cyagangy

Self Immolation fr fr
Apr 27, 2024
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Hey Cya! :) I'm glad to hear that you're feeling a bit better now! hehe~

That's happened to me many times as well~ It tends to be more frequent when I just get confused about all the bad stuff and can't concentrate on anything or when I get heavily distracted by something from everything else

Hey Cya! :) I'm glad to hear that you're feeling a bit better now! hehe~

That's happened to me many times as well~ It tends to be more frequent when I just get confused about all the bad stuff and can't concentrate on anything or when I get heavily distracted by something from everything else~
Ahh I see, glad to know I'm not the only one this happens with.
I do mostly agree with this cause there are certainly some people out there who feign mental illness but are just putting on an act. But on the other hand if someone is having very dangerous thoughts of grandeur or very dangerous reactions to their hallucinations that person might reject all those who wsnt to have them go to therapy and probably start medication even tho that is probably what eould be best for them.

I agree that different people deal with the struggle of abuse and the recovery from abuse in different ways. I am very surr that there is something called 'Shit Life Syndrome' and a person may be diagnosed as 'depressed' when in reality the person's life sucks cause theur parents and colleagues have ostracized them for baseless, selfish, or psychopathic reasons. And then suddenly when this person leaves those toxic fools and the person gets a couple weeks or years of recovery away from those toxic fools or even they experience unconditional acceptance from other people of peaceful will as them and their 'dEppReSsIon' diagnosis just disappears or becomes less harsh at least... cause they fucking dont got to deal with those knuckle dragging fascists anymore . Their sadness may just be a normal reaction to how they see the unreparated injustices of thise world and our history and the people of their community or family. Their life is no longer shit now , so their 'Shit Life Syndrome' is cured and they eventually get cured.

well you have to be realistic about a few things here and there. like if a 6'10 250 pound person starts bullying you you gotta just accept thatthey have the W here and you cant really do anything to stop them for now . YOull probably have to wait then just go on your way and maybe report the person . Or record the person. .

But for most things in life there is probably no to little harm with looking at them in an optimistic and carefree light.

Glad that youre getting better now 🫂
I dunno, being normal now makes me kinda feel like I have been fine this whole time. I never got diagnosed and I know a diagnosis won't let me serve so I think I'll just head canon myself into believing that I was fine the whole time.
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Im glad your feeling better how you dont go down into depression cuz that may happen but if not go on be happy. You deserve that!

Ive been happy but moslty drug induced but moslty I can be just meh
Thank you, also that sounds really unfortunate.
 
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