Venting Random thoughts/ Poem

[iOnceFeltAlive]

Pressure, pain , tingling

These things I can't stop they just keep continuing

I'm a wreck, can't stop thinking about all the pain I've caused and living with.

A 45 to my brain will make it all subside

But I have no resources to help ME get by

Please don't let me wake.

I want peace and quiet and no more hate

Fear consumes me day and night as my body weakens and decays

Why can't I just sleep forever and never wake?

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

Pressure, pain , tingling

These things I can't stop they just keep continuing

I'm a wreck, can't stop thinking about all the pain I've caused and living with.

A 45 to my brain will make it all subside

But I have no resources to help ME get by

Please don't let me wake.

I want peace and quiet and no more hate

Fear consumes me day and night as my body weakens and decays

Why can't I just sleep forever and never wake?

Sadly beautiful. That last line resonates with me. Just go out in my sleep.

 

[Despondent]

I love poetry and I love your poem. It's not shitty

 

[Homecoming]

I MUST STOP drinking alcohol now

 

[Going Home]

That was NOT me. People do look alike. I am not an actress. No one is paying me to act. I do not like pain. I do not like to be seen in the nude. I do not play games, never been a drug addict and I'm not a liar I do not have to change. What a set up!!! Fuck people who manipulate laws to destroy another's life. Take your falsified documents and lies and shove them up your momma's ass. You will be exposed.