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darkenmydoorstep
Not Waving But Browned Off….
- Sep 27, 2023
- 490
Depressed again
2008 days to go til my son is 18 and I can pack up and fuck off and not feel like a terrible human being because he'd no longer be a child.
Someone said to me recently if I killed myself he'd never forgive me. I said I wouldn't care cause I'd be dead, wouldn't I? I know he and his father would be better without me. Three has always been a crowd in this house.
So I count down the days on an app. Wait it out. Unless in the meantime I can go to Peru and do the deed.
The man I love continues to fuck with my head. Other night he talks to me deeply for about 3 hours then afterwards…..nothing. It's like I'm half dead already, sitting in a room alone, crossing off the days.
Just played the lottery again. Would money help? Well, I could get to Peru quicker at least.
2008 days to go til my son is 18 and I can pack up and fuck off and not feel like a terrible human being because he'd no longer be a child.
Someone said to me recently if I killed myself he'd never forgive me. I said I wouldn't care cause I'd be dead, wouldn't I? I know he and his father would be better without me. Three has always been a crowd in this house.
So I count down the days on an app. Wait it out. Unless in the meantime I can go to Peru and do the deed.
The man I love continues to fuck with my head. Other night he talks to me deeply for about 3 hours then afterwards…..nothing. It's like I'm half dead already, sitting in a room alone, crossing off the days.
Just played the lottery again. Would money help? Well, I could get to Peru quicker at least.
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