αmber
Earth is not my home
- Oct 25, 2021
- 84
It hadn't rained for quite some time. It's dark and it's raining now. I'm feeling a deep sadness inside. I am like within a seemingly infinite fog: my brain can't work well and I am not able to picture a day much further than tomorrow.
I know I need to join inexistence soon. I know it since I was so little. Since those days I first-handed saw what the world was about. Since those days I saw my father beat up my mother to a point he nearly killed her every time. Since those days we would starve out of no money for even a slice of bread. I see diseases everywhere, both physical and mental. I see a lot of people putting effort onto doing the same routine over and over again everyday while heading towards an inevitable end in a few years.
Wars, crimes, hate and misery of all kinds exist in this world. Those, for me alone, are enough reasons not to stay here for much longer. Life is an absurd. Our insides are disgusting. We are walking gruesome-creatures wandering around the streets like robots. I feel like I can see my insides rotting away by the second. This body is a prison. Life is something really weird.
I know I need to join inexistence soon. I know it since I was so little. Since those days I first-handed saw what the world was about. Since those days I saw my father beat up my mother to a point he nearly killed her every time. Since those days we would starve out of no money for even a slice of bread. I see diseases everywhere, both physical and mental. I see a lot of people putting effort onto doing the same routine over and over again everyday while heading towards an inevitable end in a few years.
Wars, crimes, hate and misery of all kinds exist in this world. Those, for me alone, are enough reasons not to stay here for much longer. Life is an absurd. Our insides are disgusting. We are walking gruesome-creatures wandering around the streets like robots. I feel like I can see my insides rotting away by the second. This body is a prison. Life is something really weird.